[PointOfNoReturn]

anyone else ever get images of what severe SI your brain wants you to do, and it feels like they are creeping closer and closer and that eventually they will stop being images and you will just do it?

((((((hugs)))))
sometimes this happens to me

i'll see something sharp and think to myself, oh my god.. think of the damage i could do with that

[PointOfNoReturn]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

((((((hugs)))))
sometimes this happens to me

i'll see something sharp and think to myself, oh my god.. think of the damage i could do with that

i get similar, but reversed, think of the damage i want to inflict and then work out what tools i can use to do it

When it gets real bad talk to a pcp or ER and ask for meds with this or counseling. Don't assume anything but deal with it... (((hugs))) I wish you success in beating this

[PointOfNoReturn]

Originally Posted by omegalamed

When it gets real bad talk to a pcp or ER and ask for meds with this or counseling. Don't assume anything but deal with it... (((hugs))) I wish you success in beating this

thanks.. whats a pcp though?

[lelouch1205]

I've had those thoughts sometimes. I don't have a big history of self injury, but I have done it before and I've been struggling lately with hitting myself in the head and it's scary because I've read it can actually do brain damage after a while. But definitely get help any way possible. I've finally started to get help for my issues by talking to my old youth pastor. Sometimes someone like that I think can actually be better than professional help in way because you have a connection with them. I wish you luck with getting rid of those thoughts though. I know you can do it and you may not know me, but I like to help people in any way I can and I'm always open to talking about anything.

[Fuzzybear]

[PinkFlamingo99]

Originally Posted by PointOfNoReturn

anyone else ever get images of what severe SI your brain wants you to do, and it feels like they are creeping closer and closer and that eventually they will stop being images and you will just do it?

This is me exactly. I actually spoke to my pdoc about this again this week and he said it has a lot to do with OCD type thoughts. It's intrusive thoughts as opposed to something purely impulsive.

Once the scale tips so to speak, I know I am cutting.

[vegancupcake]

Originally Posted by PointOfNoReturn

thanks.. whats a pcp though?

A PCP is a Primary Care Physican or a Family Doctor.

[ScientiaOmnisEst]

Originally Posted by PointOfNoReturn

anyone else ever get images of what severe SI your brain wants you to do, and it feels like they are creeping closer and closer and that eventually they will stop being images and you will just do it?

I actually checked myself into the hospital because of this. Well, that and I needed to get out of that house and where someone would actually listen to me.

It was a lot more common when I was younger - I seem to have mostly outgrown it, having intrusive flashes and images of myself being brutally attacked or mutilated or otherwise harmed. I seem to have gotten past that, numbed myself to my usual triggers.

It's still quite easy to imagine myself in the place of someone being harmed, though.