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So here I am again. Only this time, I am high as hell, and I know I am not thinking straight. But yet I want to cut. I want that small little hurt to say that everything is okay. I want that sharp slide that tells me I am still human, that the emotional pain has still not overcome all of me. I want to know that I can handle another day, and be a, well be here. But I know one cut isn't one cut. I know that one cut is just a doorway to another cut. And another. So I know its wrong. But still I wonder, why shouldn't I?
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Because it will leave scars. Because one day you will regret it, I promise. Because one time might be the last time, even accidentally. And because there are so many more productive ways to make yourself feel emotions again without damaging your body.
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At the end of the day it's your decision. No one makes you do it and no one can stop you, but there are consequences, physical and emotional. Do you want to live with those?
Maybe a list of pros and cons could help you understand what you really think .....once you have come down a little. In the meantime, how about contacting a helpline to get you through the next minutes and hours? What could you lose by it, they won't know who you are or where you live. Caring wishes ![]() |
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Why shouldn't you? That's a very fair question. Or so our mind tends to think when we are in that place.
You want to feel something. Right? You want to let out the pain and hurt that is inside of you. Give it a way to escape from your body. But cutting will only release blood, not the real issue. Not the real pain and distress that is causing these feelings. It's funny how sometimes we know all the reasons why we shouldn't. We know logically why it's a horrible idea. Yet the emotions and urges so badly want to overpower that. Hang onto the truth, my friend, not the feelings. Hang in there. You will make it through. ![]()
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Yes. Jesus is the reason I am still alive today. ![]() Diagnoses: MDD, BPD, PTSD, OCD, AN-BP (I don't define myself by my personal alphabet up there, but I put it there so that maybe somebody won't feel so alone ![]() |
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