[LonesomeTonight]

Took my 3-month HIV test today after cheating on H in January (he knows and we're working on it in counseling). It was negative, which is a good thing. Yet I feel like SHing. It's hard for me to accept that there are no repercussions to what I did. H is willing to work things out, I probably* don't have HIV...but I feel like I should be punished in some way, so maybe it's up to me to punish myself?

*From what I've read online, including from the CDC, 98% of people who are infected would test positive by 3 months. So presumably, I'm OK, but maybe I'm the 2%?

[Demunie]

Hi lonesome,

Aren't you already "punished" enough? I mean, you have to live with what you did. People make mistakes, that's in our nature. You had the courage to tell your h and to work out your problems. That's more most people would do. You're taking responsibility for what you did, that's a good thing. You don't deserve to SI.

Could you take the test a second time to be sure?



Stay safe

[seesaw]

Lonesome,

Even IF you did deserve to be punished, damaging your body is not a punishment you deserve. You have to live with what you did. That's a lot of punishment right now. YOu have to deal with the rift you caused between you and your significant other. You are dealing with plenty of consequences from cheating, you don't need to inflict additional pain upon yourself to prove that you've paid for it.

Use your coping skills and maybe even talk to your H about it. Tell him, I feel so bad I feel the need to punish myself by SH, but I know that's not a good option. Maybe it will open a dialogue between the two of you.

Please don't damage your body.

Seesaw

[DPC1970]

I was left behind by my SW and I would like to know why do you feel you need to be punished for your ,you have to cope with that I really don't know I have never been there .But you have to ask a house power for forgiveness