Deeper

I'm fighting so much with this and i'm not even so sure what is keeping me from doing it...

Unfortunately with cutting, gradually you need to do it more and worse to get the same effect. Try to fight it as much as you can, it isn't worth it. Not really

i NEED to do it. i would feel GUILTY if i wouldnt... or like i would fall in the dark, feeling powerless forever. and i dont want that. i need to feel IN CONTROL and cutting gives it to me. but im so scared i'd go too deep

i gave in and did it, but im still not satisfy... or maybe yes, maybe i just would like to continue...

BUT

on my arm, im afraid i'll regret it this summer...

what do you think about ? do you like it or regretted it if anyone has done it?

I liked it, but I guess it depends on the word and if you would still feel the same about it in the future.

I would recommend taking a break. It sounds like you've been through a rough time just now, and you need some rest and to take care of yourself. If you feel strongly about the word right now, you could try writing it on paper or some other medium so that you won't do anything you might regret. *hugs*

i carved it a bit more and now im satisfied

I carved the word MAD into my thigh once. I regret it. It's mostly healed and that scar wasn't particularly deep so it didn't remain, and I'm glad it didn't.

I was where you are, cutting deeper and deeper.



It caused me some very bad scars, and I wish that I hadn't been so crazy as to do all that. Try whatever you can to distract yourself and get yourself through this time without cutting. Drink really cold liquids real fast and give yourself a brain freeze. Eat hot peppers. Hold ice in your hand until it freezes. Draw on yourself or paint on yourself. Try everything before you have to cut. And then try it again. You don't want the scars that I have, I promise you that.

Seesaw

I carve or burn words into my skin. Sometimes instead of doing that I write them on said place with a whiteboard marker. Sometimes, that's enough.