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I haven't SI for 5 years now, but over the past few weeks I have been very tempted. I am doing other things to cope, but I also have a strong urge to drink. A very strong urge to drink, and I'm not an alcoholic and I rarely ever have a drink.
Things have been so stressful that I'm finding it very difficult to cope. I also have DID and some of my alters are also self-destructive right now. I need a safe place to talk, but there really isn't anywhere completely safe. I tried talking to my T in an email and when he couldn't get ahold of me later he panicked and sent the police. I ended up committed for 3 days when I was just venting like I needed to. Writing my thoughts out keeps me from acting on them. Not being able to write them out and have someone write back (like I learned to do) makes me want to SI again. Too many places report people for their thoughts and yet we're told that thoughts are just thoughts. So now I keep my thoughts and feelings to myself to keep others from being disturbed by them. But then I feel like I'm going to implode. My depression is worse than it's been in years. I slept the entire day today and I'm still tired. Sleep is one of my coping skills. I know all the right things to do and I still want to do the unhealthy things first. Probably because I'm trying to forget something that happened. That's why I want to drink. I take medication though, so I really shouldn't drink. My T always says not to while my doctor says one or two and no more. I just want enough to not think or feel for awhile. I'm struggling and now feel limited in what I can say to my T. ![]() I know I can't say too much here either cause I don't want to trigger anyone or get reported. Just wish I could find a true "safe" place to share. |
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Could you get a journal with a lock on it and then highlight the parts you want to discuss at therapy. Most psych Dr's won't do email/over the phone because it's nearly impossible to assess if someone is going to follow through with their thinking. I'm sorry you went through that.
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I really don't know what to but I wanted to say something because even though I don't know you I am here for support or to talk to or so maybe you realize your not alone
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Would writing it down in a journal be just as empowering? I know, bantering and interaction is hard to recreate, but I find journaling cathartic.
![]() You are welcome to PM me if you ever wanna talk, BTW.
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