[Sarmas]

I guess when I have issues in my life and when things start going wrong in my life then my thoughts are not the best. I made a few bad choices today and I came home to someo nonsense and now the urge to cut is major. When I had a a T it was so much easier to deal with. Typically I would sometimes hand her whatever I was going to use and I would take into consideration that we are working on things. I now have this no one cares attitude and I'm free to do as I like. I'm not working on getting better and I feel like things sometimes just doesn't matter. I guess I'm having a bit of a dark moment. She sometimes told me that I'm an adult to make my own decisions but with this sometimes she was more proactive. It's been some time since I felt this way. The last time I did I was in therapy. Just trying to hang in there.

[Skeezyks]

I'm sorry you are struggling with this, Sarmas. I also go through periods where I feel like... oh hell... what does anything matter... just do what you want... who cares? I don't really know what causes it. A lot of the time, in my case, I think it comes in the aftermath of one of my outbursts of anger. So, from that perspective, perhaps it's a way of protecting myself from the guilt I feel over having fomented another fit of anger. Hope you find success with hanging in there...

[Sarmas]

I think you're right. I think it's an accumulation.

[Ms. DeeSurvivor]

Originally Posted by Sarmas

I think you're right. I think it's an accumulation.

Yes, an accumulation of many things...makes it that much harder.