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#1
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Hello everyone.
It's been almost a decade since I last self-harmed - or at least since I last deliberately cut myself. Recently I've started to really feel an urge to do it. I think because of stuff that's going on for me in therapy. Tonight I really want to. Ten years and it's still there - I guess it's just been lurking all this time. I hate myself so much, I want to hurt myself. |
![]() PatternsInTheIvy, whisperingskye
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#2
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I know how you feel. Do you have a self care list or distractions and comforts you can use?
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#3
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Thanks for your reply... Your username seems very appropriate right now!
I had a look at the list of distractions/other coping mechanisms on here. None of them sounded like they'd be anywhere near sufficient but I am trying... I can't do it, really. I wouldn't be able to hide it from my partner. I wouldn't even know what to do it with... I'm so anxious these days about infections and stuff, it'd have to be a sterilised hospital blade! Those things are helping to stop me. But I'm so worried that I want to this much. After so long. |
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#4
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An old care coordinator gave me this list once. There are a lot of different things you can try, I don't know if it will help or not.
http://www.nshn.co.uk/downloads/Distractions.pdf Ten years is a long time, I hope you can keep it up. ![]() Keep reaching out here if it might help at all, even if it's just to vent ![]()
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Tired of feeling lost, tired of letting go. Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down. Tired of wasting breath, tired of nothing left. Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down. Failure. Failure - Breaking Benjamin |
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#5
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Thank you Skye.
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#6
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Hey there, just checkin in to see how you're doing if you wish to share.
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#7
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Quote:
I haven't SHed and the urges have been much less powerful today. I don't think I'm out of the woods but I feel hopeful... |
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#8
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You're quite welcome!
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