Keep having these fantasies of doing worse and worse to myself. Making cutting "plans." These ideas and fantasies can dominate my thoughts at times. I spoke to T a little bit about them last week, but I guess I will tell him about the "plans" today when I see him. Everytime we have a discussion about cutting it ends up being exhausting because I sort of flip out on him. It gets very intense and heated. So hard to talk about.

[Kiya]

(((((((( pink )))))))))))
maybe it's "in the water" right now... my mind is full with them as well and they seem so real! like they already happened and i'm watching them again.

my t is finally taking this conversation seriously (after my last 22 scratches) and I think is working on a treatment plan.

I hope you can stay safe, pink, and that you have t soon enough to intervein. Kiya

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((( pink )))))))))))))

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((Pink)))))))))))))))))))))))))) I hope your discussion with your T went well today. It can be a very hard topic to talk about.

BB

[bchlyn]

i hope your appointment went ok... i know how hard it is to talk about... sometimes my t really pushes me when i am in a bad cycle... when i hear what is coming out of my mouth i feel like a rebellious teen... take gentle care...lyn

[Kiya]

(((((((((((((pink)))))))))))))))))
how'd session go??

[psychoticcounselor]

i know the feeling. thoughts of just cutting every inch of my arms dominate me, like i actually ache to cut... just to feel something else besides all the emotional problems that suffocate me.

[anyone]

Hi pink

I hope it all went ok with your counsellor and hope that you are ok.