I cut myself. I don't know what to do anymore

harm myself. When I did. I was hurt by my partner because he ignored me and just looked at computer screen when I was feeling really vulnerable. I didn't felt I was taken seriously just dismissed. So I got the scissors. I thought, he be sorry. Also at the same time before.I even went to partner I was battling with Thoughts of cutting myself.
Because mum sent an email to my partners . When I was shown the email I was very upset.
So anyway I was kinda softly stabbing the sissors on my palm because I was upset. Then my partner try to take the sissors off me. I said something it feels like blurr now,but I said I feel like cutting myself. Then he said "Go and.cut yourself then" so I did.I remember a couple years ago I told my partner I wantes to kill myself and go to the road and get hit by a car. So he told me to go and do it. Angrily he said. So I walked to the road and was about to get hit by the car. But I stopped myself. I show my partner and said you did this. He said no you did. I went into's my mum's bedroom not realising how bad the scars where. I was crying and.shaking and hoping my sister was there.
Then my.partner came in and was.angry telling me "You think this is funny' a joke" I was very scared of partner.
He said he was.going.to leave
So I went to bathroom to clean my wrist. I went to my bedroom and my partner came in and he was really really angry, his eyes were like bullets. All I remember was being scared and saying sorry to him. He said to me if you want to do it. You leave a note and then you do it. You don't muck around it. That he had a rope around his neck and knife to his stomach. He said to me later on you don't know whats its like when your told by someone they want to kill themselves or cut themselves then his eyes water up.
Now Im just scared to tell anything to my partner.

I am going to therapy. Psychotherapy to be exact. Its only once a week. I been going for maybe roughly, 10 months

I just saw thread- cutting myself-- I honestly thought..... I don't kno nothing about that! Then I read what you said "I was hurt by my partner because he ignored me"
It hit me that we have the same problem but deal with it in different ways.
You cut, I drink.
Both self destructive so similar. Then you said " I didn't FEEL I was taken seriously just dismissed. I'm with u there, everyday!!!! But there is a difference here. I feel your partner understands you a little more. I also think you need psychotherapy more than once a week. Maybe also try and have one session a month together. I think this could do a world of good!!! Hope this helps and if you need to talk I'm here. And as you are in a relationship, maybe I could have u as a listening ear as I've not been able to rant yet.x