[MsSunflower]

I used self harm as a coping method pretty consistently from the ages of 13 to 18. Then I seen a really good therapist and he taught me some other coping methods and gradually I was able to stop completely. In the years since every time I find myself in crisis my first response is still to want to hurt myself but until recently I fought against that urge. The last few years of my life my mental health has declined and more and more I have been giving into that urge. Something that I thought I had put behind me (I'm now 29). I've been beating myself up about it. Telling myself I should be able to handle my problems in a more 'adult' way. I feel so out of control all the time. I used to belong to a self injury forum years ago and the support really helped and so I'm hoping to find some community here. SI is a hard thing to talk about with anyone who hasn't experienced it. Has anyone else experienced a relapse after a long time?