 |
| FAQ/Help |
| Calendar |
| Search |
|
#1
Dec 15, 2007, 04:15 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
i posted last night my history in abuse forum for the first time. was a bad night after that... at this point i am really not feeling safe - everything looks like an SI tool or means of an end. I really wish i didn't have to go to work today - i don't trust myself driving. More specifically, i don't trust the destructive alters while i'm driving. I am really quite alone in this - i don't even trust calling the crisis line (unsure what would happen there) and my T cannot be reached on the weekends. Not even my dr. can be reached on the weekends.
 I know it is just me and my mind, like an old western showdown. but somehow that simple thought evaporates when the alters get their claws in. i have to hang on to the rational. i must. i'm gonna need back up on this one. =( my support system seems to have dissapeared. kiya...
__________________
Credits: ChildlikeEmpress and Pseudonym for this lovely image.   alt="Universal Life Church | ULC" border="0">
|
|
#2
Dec 15, 2007, 04:39 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Hey Kiya,
Hang in there today. I am around for personal email if you need to. Just know that? PM me and I will send you my email and phone number. we can talk all day if you wish. Just dont do it. you are better than SI. Colleen PS. I know you dont know me well but i care. as does everybody here. Stay positive. will b thinking about you.
__________________
Tomorrow always has the potential to be better than today. lets pretend its tomorrow...ok? |
|
#3
Dec 15, 2007, 06:33 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Know I am here and I care. I hope you have been able to resist harming yourself. Please try and stay safe. Feel free to PM me anytime.
BB
__________________
 |
|
#4
Dec 15, 2007, 08:43 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Hi Kiya
I'm sorry you had a rough day. Please don't hurt yourself. We care about you here. I understand, I'm just like you. Struggling. Sometimes it's taking care of myself 15 minutes at a time, let only One Day at a Time - although I find that works well for me. PM me tonight if you like we can chat!(Keep talking) |
|
#5
Dec 16, 2007, 03:22 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Ugh - i was at work. worked 2-10:30 today. I got through. It was soooooooooooo busy (today's like the 2nd biggest shopping day after thanksgiving) that i thankfully didn't have time to get near a razor blade. when i did need one, someone else cut the box for me (i felt like i was being protected by unseen forces). I know i would have used it.
Thank you all for the support - it means a lot. I haven't been this tired since I don't know when - i honestly through my body would just shut down and black out at one point. I am safe right now. Thank you ((((((((hugs all)))))) kiya
__________________
Credits: ChildlikeEmpress and Pseudonym for this lovely image. alt="Universal Life Church | ULC" border="0">
|
|
#6
Dec 16, 2007, 10:55 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I am glad that you are feeling better and that you had no opportunity to harm yourself. I hope it continues that way. Please try and stay safe.
BB
__________________
|
|
#7
Dec 16, 2007, 02:12 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
safety is an odd thing - it can come in the disguise of being too tired to care about SI. It's energy i just don't have to use right now.
(((((((((hugs, BB)))))))))) child parts hug their own little polar bear
__________________
Credits: ChildlikeEmpress and Pseudonym for this lovely image. alt="Universal Life Church | ULC" border="0">
|
|
#8
Dec 16, 2007, 08:24 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
When your energy comes back, I hope that you will be able to use it positively. Kiya, I'm proud of you!
__________________
“We should always pray for help, but we should always listen for inspiration and impression to proceed in ways different from those we may have thought of.” – John H. Groberg 
|
|
#9
Dec 17, 2007, 05:03 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
((((((thanks, Rap)))))).
__________________
Credits: ChildlikeEmpress and Pseudonym for this lovely image. alt="Universal Life Church | ULC" border="0">
|
| Reply |
This is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.|
|
Similar Threads
|
||||
| Thread | Forum | |||
| Safe? | Survivors of Abuse | |||
| Its safe in here | Dissociative Disorders | |||
| Is it Safe here? | Dissociative Disorders | |||
My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.
Linear Mode
