I know it's getting out of hand.

I know i *should* stop.

I don't wanna stop.

I don't think I can.

I can't let go of it.

[Cthomas]

Hey pink, I know you are having a tough time. But you can stop. You can stay away from this. What can we do to help ease the urges? did something happen? You may not want to stop. but you CAN. and i want to help as best i can.

Anything I can do, Im here.

Colleen

[mlpHolmes]

(((((Pink))))) I understand. That's why it's good for you to express how you are feeling with us. Talking it out may help you, in PM or Support Chat. Could you promise yourself to talk with someone at PC before SI ing. You can PM me anytime & I can be at the "Love" sculpture in Phila. in 1/2 hour!
Love You,

[Christina86]

(((((((((pinksoil)))))))))))))

It takes a lot of time to quit anything we're used to. Just take it easy on yourself, and try to deny temptation for 5 minutes, then 10 or 15... see how long you can deny the urge to SI. It gets easier as time passes.

take care of yourself.

[Kiya]

when you're ready, it will go on it's own.

[jacq10]

((((((((((Pinksoil)))))))))))

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((pinksoil)))))))))))))))))))))))) Maybe you can go a little bit at a time without SI. Sometimes that helps.

BB

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((( pinksoil )))))))))))

[bchlyn]

sometimes just acknowledging those feelings is a start... i sure hear you...lyn

Thanks for all the replies. I just don't think I am ready right now. Maybe I can try to reduce just a bit, instead of going out of my way to do more than I probably need to. The whole thing is so complicated, really.

[bchlyn]

you know... the truth is i don't want to stop either...i have tried to just cut a little... when the urges get bad... i know just exactly where i want to cut... i can feel the place... so there have been times that i think...just take your nail and rub the place... and i can feel myself begin to disassociate... but not enough... so i take the blade and try to just rub it on my arm...then it just keeps on and gets more and more intense the more separated i feel from myself... so i guess what i am saying is... it doesn't work to well for me... seems i am an all or nothing kind of person... so just a little... isn't an option for me... take gentle care...lyn

[starfish]

I think the concept of "stopping" makes it sound too difficult and too permanent. Thinking about stopping forever has always made me feel anxious, which then makes me want to cut. Maybe reframing the idea would help. I can't think that I've "stopped," though it's been months since I last cut. I've just made a deal myself that I can cut when I really "need" it. It at least makes me think about it for a minute rather than just reacting. Also having my razor out of my immediate reach - in a downstairs closet vs in my bedroom, helps, but maybe I'm just lazy. Whatever works. Good luck.

[bchlyn]

i think your right...everytime i think i have gotten past it... that i am "never" going to cut again... it seems to make the let down worse...don't know if that makes sense...lyn

[Kiya]

those are good points - everytime i post i am doing well, i slip up - that let down piece.

plus, starfish said something about not thinking abou stopping.... really, the brain doesn't understand Don't, so like when we tell kids Don't Run - all the brain takes in is RUn. So if we say I won't cut... the brain understand "i cut".

yeah? sometimes it works for me to give myself permission to cut and then that just takes all the "sting" outta it and i stay safe just because.