[peedoff]

Hi i have suffered with SI issues since i was young. I have cut myself more times than i can remember and finally stopped about 4yrs ago. Last nite i was feeling very low and before i knew it i was sitting there razor in hand and cuts on my arms. How stupid am i, now i fear i will start all over as life is crap. I dont want to do this but i cant help myself.

[BalishBun]

a relapse feels like such a set-back. I wish you luck, 4 years and no cutting? That was a huge step. But it doesn't mean that whatever causes you to do it wouldn't show up again. You can try again and succeed.

[Perna]

You can help yourself, you did for 4 years. You're neither stupid nor doomed. As Confucius said, "Be not ashamed of mistakes and thus make them crimes." Put it in perspective with the 4 years!

[Rapunzel]

Relapses happen. One way to look at it is that you have only cut once in four years. That way you can keep on counting, until it's five years, etc. You made it four years! One slip doesn't negate that. You can still keep going. And what's more important is that in those four yours you must have learned some better coping strategies too. Anything you have learned, you still have. You just slipped on night. You're still everything you were before that happened.

TC,
Rap

[bchlyn]

i think that the advise the others gave is really helpful... i am beginning to understand that until i figure out what the under lying issues really are... i might fight the urges... they may even be quiet for awhile... but it's all still there... take gentle care of yourself...lyn