[uselessbullets]

sooo...i havent exactly been diagnosed with depression cos im such a chicken to go to the dr's. but well im pretty sure i am. or have. i dunno. i sorta swing in and out of it. the depression lasts for a week or so. then it stops for a month or so. i did cut during those periods. but i stopped. uh well i think im sinking back in. and im scared ill start SI again. and i dont wanna sink back in. not when i have to be doing good this year...=/

[bchlyn]

i understand how hard it is to admit to anyone let alone your doctor that you are struggling with depression... i got to a place about 2 years ago where my anxiety had taken on a life of it's own... and i knew i needed help... it's hard but, you can do it... lyn

[jamminpianogirl]

I know where you're coming from - I've been suffering from depression/anxiety for several years now, but never thought to bring it to a doctor. Last year the problem intensified so much that I knew I had to get professional help. But I didn't because I was so afraid. However, a year later the problem is only getting worse and is becoming somewhat debilitating, as well as frightening and too overwhelming for me to deal with anymore. I forced myself to call mental health services at my college this weekend, and I'm going to an appointment on wednesday. Honestly, I wish I had gotten help before things got so bad, and I urge you to do so, but I understand how tough it can be to go see a doctor about these things.

[Christina86]

Welcome to PC, glad you found us!

Glad you've been doing fairly well this year - good start

Is there anyone you can ask to go to the doctors with? We can't make diagnoses here... but it might help to talk to you doc to see what he/she can help you with. Do you have anyone to talk to (counsellor/therapist?)

Keep posting here - it can sometimes help to talk about the urges rather than go through with them (thats what I've found anyways)

Be safe.