why keep trying

I want to cut. Can't take the issues anymore

I'm trying. Really am but its looking bad again

(((((((((((((((((Colleen)))))))))))))))))))))) I am sorry things are so hard. Know I am here and I care. Can you try and think of all the things you have been doing lately that have helped?

BB

You can get thru this, you have come along way. We are all here to help support you thru these rough times. Sorry you are not feeling good. ((((Colleen)))))

((((((((((Colleen))))))))))

You can get through this. And I know right now seems really stressful with your job and stuff up in the air... but if you can, try and do things that make you feel good.

Go outside and get some exercise, "clear your head" as you always put it.

Most importantly though, don't give up.

The things that mean the most to us in life are often times the things that we have to work the most for. So keep on digging in there, and show those people what you are made of!

And in the mean time, show yourself what you're made of by resisting the SI... because I have no doubt that you are capable of that. You are SUCH a strong woman.

I'm always here for you too ok?
Miss you..
xoxoxo

Thanks to all for your replies.

@jac, the car is necessary as my job requires driving from site to site. so im kinda stuck, and knew it coming in. altough that being said my boss knew i wouldnt be able to make a purchase till may.

just seems like when i get my %#@&#! straight, somebody just popps a big huge brickwall in my face.

Im workin on it.

me

*hands colleen a jackhammer* - for the brick wall of course.
It is having the tools we need to get through the urges.
we just have to find them....
(((((((((((((colleen)))))))))))))))
sending good thoughts and positive energy your way!!!
Kiya

thanks. sorry im so useless here lately.....

guess its my niche huh?

me

Okay, you're not useless. Going through a tough time yes, but that doesn't make you bad or useless or anything like that.

You keep trying because you know deep down that you're worth it, you keep trying because you're a good person, and you keep trying because it does get easier.

I'm sorry life is so sucky right now. (((((((((((((Colleen))))))))))))

Just dont see the point in trying really. what use am I - always seeing the negative. always attracting the negative....

not good my friend not good.Going out tonite, hoping for a good laugh - probably not but i can hope right?

me

((((Colleen)))) Hang in there, maybe a nite out will help a little.

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guess its my niche huh?

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you don't have to be down on yourself - we all know where you're at and you will get through.... keep breathing.... (((((hugs!!!!))))))) you got enough on your plate without having to feel worse, eh?

((((Colleen)))) you are strong i know you can do this

I hope you had fun last night. I can understand how hard that can be when you are feeling bad. Know that I am here and I care.

BB

((((((((((((Colleen)))))))))))))))

Hope your night out was okay.

We see the negative and are attracted to it because sometimes that's all we know, and thats all we feel we deserve... change is scary. Holding on and not SIng is scary, because it's different. It's hard a lot of the time.

Send me an email if you want to talk okay? Love ya.

colleen... i am sorry i didn't respond sooner ... i have been out of town... my son got married last night... i hope your feeling better... and your not useless... please take care of yourself... lyn

Hey all. sorry for the late respnose. but i am feeling MUCH better aside from a anasty migrane....

thank you all so much for helping as usual i could not have done it without your help

Hugs to all of you......

Colleen

=) hugs back!!!!

more hugs
and congrats on your son's wedding, lyn

(((((((((((((((((Colleen))))))))))))))))))))))))) Glad you are feeling better.

BB

Why keep trying?
I'll give you the answer when I find it.
All I know is that at the end of that road, no matter how messed up, steep, slippery, trecherous, sickening it is to follow, something is waiting there for you that will make all of this trying worthwhile.

because its worth it
and because youre worth it

thinking about you colleen... stay safe... take care...lyn