[angel730]

So when I last posted on here a helpful person told me to post on here before I thought about cutting myself. So here it goes.....I have had a really bad weekend and had to talk with one of my professors on why I have been skipping classes. I don’t think she understands which seems reasonable in her position. It was just really hard for me to confront that and I hate myself for even putting myself in that position. I guess I am just self destructive in more than just cutting myself. When I'm with other people either I feel numb or hatful of myself. Everything I do just turns into hating myself--I really try not to think of it and only positive things but I just keep coming back to being a failure at life. Every part of my life I seem to mess up. I have never really had a lot of friends and am a shy person. This is probably due to my low self-esteem because I feel I am ugly and obese--Which in turn makes me anti-social. but the sad thing is, is that I try to make friends and talk to guys. I have never had a boyfriend (big surprise) and haven’t even had a guy interested in me--not even held hands! I know I'm just ranting about stuff people don’t want to hear because it is SO pathetic. But with mixing all of my problems from my past and present just really makes me want to hurt myself because I hate myself so much right now.

[sujunew]

(((((angel)))))
I hope that by posting it has distracted you away from those thoughts/intentions of SI. Kudos to you for taking that step of coming here first. Please take care, and keep posting

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((((angel)))))))))))))))))))) I think it is great that you reached out for support. I am sorry that you feel so bad about yourself. I hope that soon you can see what a great person you are. Sometimes it helps to have someone to help you work through some negative thoughts that seem to be ingrained over a long period of time. Would you consider something like that? You may find that it helps you and gives you a source for support to discuss many life issues. Such as skipping class. I hope that you were able to resist cutting. I am here if I can help support you too.

BB

[Typo]

angel I'm sorry your feeling so bad right now. You did a really good thing by coming here and posting. We all care to hear from you and it is good for you to come here and post to get everything off your chest dear. Keep hanging on we are all here for you!!

[purplebutterfly]

((((Angel))) You have came to great place for support. Keep Posting with us.

[Rapunzel]

I'd just like to add that I think it's really good insight that you might be self-destructive in more ways than cutting. I find that I sabotage myself in other ways too. It's hard to learn to love yourself and take good care of yourself when you hate yourself. I hope you have a therapist to help you change that. It doesn't change all at once usually, but you can take baby steps. You do deserve to be successful and to like yourself and to have friends and the things you want in life.

[paintingravens]

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