[blackdragon]

I skipped play practice today... I have a director who was very fun and happy in the last play Philadelphia story.. now this year in peter pan she is totally mean... Especially to me.. I work this year too... I think she expects that i put play practice in before work.. but now i dont know whta to do... no matter what i do its wrong.. not to mention some of the cast look at me as a immature brat.. (see last post) I want to quit but if i do i dissapoint my family.. I dont know what i did... one kid said i was tarty cause i came in at 7:15 thinking play practice was at 7:30 but its at 7. So he says tarty i was starting to say this is how much i care what... she iterupts me saying YOU SHOULD CARE WEATHER UR LATE OR NOT... i said calmly before u interupted me i was saying THIS IS HOW MUCH I CARE WHAT U THINK ________ kids name... She say oh well u should care wheather ur late or not.. and gets on ym case about not coming on monday.. well i worked and i was trying to get off at 7... well she didnt want to listen... She doesnt yell at one girl who is never there... but she yells at me.. i dont get it.. Its not fun for me anymore... I dont even have a freaken part.. last year i was a maid.. this year im a extra....... Shows how bad my actng skills are.. and i thought i was going to be a actress. well im just oging to settle as a cop.. if i ever get over this stupid illness.. (no offense to anyone)... i haft to balance school, play practice, work, and chores everyday... truth is im tired.. i want to quit everything... but i wont... ... i just want to cut now.. matter of fact i havent cut for 2 weeks.. whoopie doo.. why do i even try to get better.. i cant afford using energy to get better.. i need it to keep that mask i have on my face, to work over time every day, get threw school, and chores.. i am up till 2 every nite, and up at 6 every morning finishing what i left off at 2... sorry if im rambling i just want to get out my feelings..

[Rapunzel]

You don't have to do everything. Getting enough sleep is important, and if you don't have time for everything, then dropping something is perfectly fine. It's your choice what you choose to keep or drop, and who cares what anyone else thinks! Take care of yourself, please.
(((((((((hugs)))))))))))

[SweetCrusader]

I agree with what Rap says. You really do need to take care of yourself! Take it from someone who did everything in highschool, just like you're doing know. I even did the plays. I wore myself out and it wasn't good for me.

(((((safe hugs))))) I hope you know we are always here for you, and we do care about you. And we DON'T care if you are immature. It's fine by us!

Angela

[Zenobia]

If you don't enjoy it and it is not a necessary thing that you are doing it should be dropped and then you will have time to rest and perhaps do something you do enjoy. As for dissapointing your family, they will get over it and they probably would rather you drop the play and not cut then to keep pushing yourself beyond your limits. You are in my thoughts,
Carrie