[insidious]

I havent cut in a few weeks nd I miss it. Its like losing a friend.Ive got nothing to make me feel better. The scars were like hugs. I could look at them and poke them a little and feel better. I didnt like when other people asked about them, and I know my kid would figure it out, so I had to stop. But I miss it every day. Im not sure what the sense of quitting is if Im justgoing to be sad and miss it all the time. I thought maybe Id find a boy or girl friend again so I wouldnt want them to see new marks. But Im never going to meet anyone anyway. Maybe if I just did it where no one could see. I just miss it. *sigh*

((((((((((((((((((( insidious )))))))))))))))))))

I totally get what you're saying about missing it. It is something that has helped you cope.

It's okay to miss it, and to acknowledge it, and to talk about it. For sure.

Have you figured out something healthy to replace it?

It's so hard, I know. Hang in there.

[x_BabyG_x]

I know exactly how you feel. I have felt like such a huge part of me has been missing for the past few months. I have often felt so empty inside, that Ive thought that maybe I couldnt live without it? But dont let it trick you into that hun, because I found out that i could live without it.

The part of you that feels empty does get smaller every day - babyg x

[insidious]

No I haven't found anything to replace it. I mean I am living without it but Im not sure why. At least I ahd something to lookl forward to.. I'm trying to meet people and stuff but idk.

Can I ask what have you used to replace it?

(((((((((((((( Insidious )))))))))))))))

This is still something I struggle with. Sometimes I try to stay a step ahead of myself, doing gentle things like coloring mandalas or other things I find soothing. I try to spend a lot of time outside because that grounds me. Basically, I try to stay out of the ANGRY place, because that's when I tend to lose it.

When I do get ANGRY, I try to do something else....write, or call T, or post on here. But I'm not very good yet at managing it, and it's hard to resist the urges. Sometimes I can, sometimes I can't. I'm still learning.

x_BabyG_x is doing REALLY well. I bet she will have some ideas for you.