[Invisible_Star]

I am a recovering cutter. After four years of dealing with it, I finally met someone who made me feel good about myself. He was wonderful. I stopped cutting and actually enjoyed life. We were together for 9 months and then he totally freaked out on me.

He got mad when I didn't spend every waking moment with him, and when we finally broke up he started stalking me. I hated him and wanted him out of my life. But now that he's gone and starting college, all of those old feelings are coming back.

I didn't cut for 10 months, and I've cut twice now in the past week. I don't know what to do. It seems like every little thing here is setting me off and making me want to hurt and to bleed. My friend tries to help me, but she can't be here all the time, and the only person I could ever really talk to about this isn't talking to me anymore, so I just don't know what to do.

[shakes]

Invisible Star,
We all have are down moments unfortunately. I have gone months without cutting and then something would happen and I would just lose it. It sounds a lot like what has happened to you.
Just don't get too down on yourself...it has happened but today is a new day and so is tomorrow. All we can do is focus on trying to help ourselves to try to calm down before we decide to cut. It is all that I can do...we might not always be sucessful and that is ok too.
Do you feel in immediate danger? If so maybe you should talk to your therapist if you have one...if not maybe getting one would help?
We are always here to talk about this...Welcome to our forum

Jessica

[SweetCrusader]

Welcome to psychcentral! I hope you can have the support you need here!!

Relapses are VERY common when you're trying to overcome self-injury. I have been there many times, too. I hope this doesn't sound like I'm just trying to solicit people to look at my website, but I have a website about self-injury and I think you might benefit from checking it out, particularly my page entitled "things to know". Here is the link, if you are interested: www.freewebs.com/thecocoon_sipages

Anyway, a LOT of us here can relate to what you're talking about. You'll fit in great here! And it's good to have you!

Angela

[NicoleB]

Invisible Star,

Don't feel bad, we all have our relapse. I had gone for several years without cutting and then started again. I don't like Nicole, so I hurt her sometimes.

Heather