[bchlyn]

i started to cut ... but then remembered if i did... i would "go away" and i couldn't do that because i had to go to work... so i stopped... wish i could "just stop" the urges.... lyn

[Fuzzybear]

Thinking of you

[Kiya]

((((((((lyn)))))))))))) that conscious decision is HUGE. you've done well. You knew where you needed to be and how and made the decision to do that over the urge. That's big stuff. Major super gold star.
(((i too wish i could just turn off the urges)))
also thinking of you!!!

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((((lyn)))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so glad you were able to stop. Awesome. Hopefully the urges will decrease too.

BB

[mountainstream]

(((((((lyn)))))))
I'm sorry things are hard....

[bchlyn]

not such a great thing... i started to cut and broke the skin...just a poke... after i cut i like to curl up and just go away... and i knew i didn't have time for that... so i didn't stop because i wanted too... or because it was what was right for me... lyn

[Kiya]

but you stopped. you stopped because you had other responsibilities. that is BIG! You are to be commended.

[bipolar_bear]

Please try and give yourself credit for what you did. You kept from cutting. That is great and a hard thing to do.

BB

[x_BabyG_x]

Well done Lyn for stopping, thats great that you recognised the feeling before you went any further, not alot of people can do that.

We all have these urges, theyre not something that can just go away just like 'that'.... but you can work on it. By stopping, you learnt to control your urges, and thats a big step.... just try and keep it up

Take care, babyg xXx

[bchlyn]

ty... it's been a hard week and is only going to get harder... i need life to slow down...lyn

[Kiya]

Hun, why is it getting harder?? can you talk about that in here? how are you doing this evening???

[bchlyn]

everything hurts so deeply... i am really scared about t tomorrow... he will want me to tell him... and i don't know if i can... lyn

[Fuzzybear]

[Kiya]

Try to tell him, hun. It's better - he can help. he cares a lot about you. (((((((((lyn)))))))))

[bchlyn]

i told him bits...but the words are really stuck deeply inside... lyn

[Kiya]

((((((((lyn)))))))))) i do understand.
I really do. Hope you can find some good things to do tonight good self care, things that are calming, soothing, give your mind a break! THinking of you!! kiya

[bchlyn]

i went to sleep,.. the increase in meds has helped with falling asleep... but woke up at 230... and the urges are kind of hard ... oh well...lyn

[Christina86]

(((((((((((Lyn))))))))))))))

You are doing good. Stopping the urges from coming is a day-to-day struggle sometimes, and it can increase with extra stressors. What you did was a good job... stopping before you caused yourself lasting harm is an excellent step.

Please be kind to yourself, you are loved and cared about here.

[bchlyn]

ty

[Typo]

((((((((((((((((lyn))))))))))))))))

[bchlyn]

back to that not so good place... is this ever going to get better... i am trying ... i am working on healing and it feels like i am just slipping further backwards... lyn

[inkblot]

Gosh I know what you mean! It is hard, isn't it?! It will happen. Have faith. You are doing great! {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{bchlyn}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

[Kiya]

yup, i second Christina!!
((((((((((((lyn)))))))))))))))
how are things today?

[Ryder]

That's incredible stuff! You are obviously a person with high standards and a great set of morals. Well done for recognising the fact that you had other responsibilities and needed to stop before you started. You are obviously a good person and I truly witsh the best for you. Thank you for sharing that!

Take care!

[Kiya]

Lyn... how are things?????