[purplebutterfly]

Give me a reason NOT to cut today, the urge is so bad I can not concentrate on anything else. And it's to the point I just need one more reason or someone saying one more negative thing to me.

[LostChildren]

Because you dont deserve to be hurt. Your not alone. Because I said not to.

Hang in there

[Der_Sohn_des_Leides]

((((purple))))

I'm sorry you're struggling today. But like LostChildren said, you don't deserve to hurt. Plus, no matter how intense the urge is right now, it will eventually pass. You're strong enough to do this, I know it. Please take care of yourself.

Safe

J

[MINIME]

The lostchildren post was me minime. Im not sure why it logged me in as lostchildren. Its a tech error or I am loosing my mind.

[Typo]

Because we all care about you dear and you DON'T deserve to hurt.
You are an amazing friend and I care very much about you and you have helped me through so many urges. Take gentle care of yourself.
We all care so much about you!!



Silver

[purplebutterfly]

Then how come I feel like I deserve to hurt because if i don't hurt myself someone else will eventually...i just want it to stop

[Irine]

You think this way because you think you DESERVE to be hurt on the whole. If not by yourself then by some1 else. you said it yourself.

I have been working with positive affirmations they seem to help
In the book "the artist`s way" - hey it` s near me i can quote from it:

If you tell yourself "I am good, I deserve a better life, i CAN feel better etc"

You may hear another voice (whom you may consider as you but it`s not) -

" Who are you kidding? who do youhtink you are?!"
This thing is the ego, the socialy devewloped external part of the self which is all your limitations, all your broblems, all your fear....when it`s no more, you ARE....

well i am just quoting form a wounderful poem i read in a live journal...

I say

works with some positive affirmations, and when the negative thoughts start to appear - write tehm down too. i quote again form Artist`s way:

"You will be amazed at the rotten things your subconcious will blurt out. Write them down. These blurts flag your personal negative core beliefs. They hold the key to yoru freedom in their ugly littel claws" The Artist`s Way / Julia Cameron

If you really want to heal - you won`t hurt yourself because you know that every time you do you make it harder to climb out of the hole.......you can do it...it depends ONLY on you. Each and every moment, but you can do it..hard as it is. you will be a hero for yourself when you win.
It`s nothing but a matter of choice. A decision (dang my spelling i am not sure about it sorry )

good luck

[x_BabyG_x]

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There you even said it yourself.... thats your reason not to

babyg xXx

[bchlyn]

ok... first understand that i am reminding myself of this ... as much as you... when we cut it keeps us in the pain... we just numb it for awhile... and don't look at the emotions and triggers that we need to look at... and for me it keeps me stuck in the past... that i want so badly to put behind me.

[Irine]

... and believe it or not....one day you will not ever have the urge to do it again

isn`t it a good reason?

one day you will recall and say "heck i feel so much better!"

[purplebutterfly]

I have failed you all- I cut last night I couldn't take it anymore- lots of screaming and yelling and crying and just being lonely and depressed - i gave in and cut Im sorry I am a ****** person- I hate myself and I hate my illness.

[blue_roses]

(((((((((((((((((((( purplebutterfly ))))))))))))))))))))))))

you did not fail anyone! we all understand!!

try not to be too hard on yourself. it's done and over.

you are a wonderful person.

be gentle with yourself today.

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((((((purplebutterfly)))))))))))))))))))))))))) You have not failed anyone. I am sorry things are so hard. Please try and be kind to yourself.

BB