Slipping Fast *Trigger*

I'm heading down the wrong road again. I didn't know where to put this so here I am. I cut. I've been suicidal a lot this week. Sunday I just wanted to take all my pills and lay next to my mom's grave. Last night I just wanted to end it all again because...I don't know why. Anyways, I didn't do any of that. I'm in a lot of trouble. I'm trying to hold on but it don't look too good at this point. I want out of everything that's going on in my life.

I have no great advice to give anyone because I cannot even bring myself out of this depression. I'm falling fast and I can't stop this downward spiral. I don't want to be around anyone, sometimes not even my own boyfriend. I'm wanting to isolate a lot and just be alone. The survivor in me tries to reach out to others. Last night I was so tempted to just admit myself into the hospital. I can't let anyone know how weak I am, though.

Sorry, I don't mean to drag on this post...I'm just hurting.

Lex your NOT weak, your reaching out here.
Your just going through a bad period, been there /done that myself.
Go the Hospital route for now, it will help this shows a great deal of strength.
((((Hugs))))) if you want them
Angie

Helping yourself is not being weak. It would show strength to face your demons, which includes the demon of fear of what others may think. What good is it to put on a "strong" front and end up dead? Go to the hospital, get the help you need.
Carrie

Lex.. I'm so happy that you identified that you have a survivor in you. Please allow that survivor to reach out. She is trying to help you. We care about you. Please take care of yourself. Call your therapist and read your T this post. You are a survivor.

esthersvirtue

(((((((((((((Lex))))))))))))))))

Hang in there, and get help. There are lots of ups and downs, but you can get through this. Let your support system do what they are there for. Being strong includes knowing when it's time to call for assistance, and not letting worries about what people will think stop you.