[justalittleparanoid]

I am not sure i can do this. I wanted to be cut free for my 20th birthday. so i can have a fresh start. But I started reading a book. Then I read one of my books that helps me not to cut. And it made it worse!!!!!!!!!! I dont know what i should do. Im confused. I dont want to do this. It was going to be my new years resolution. Not to do it anymore. I thought that i was compleatly over it. I guess im not. Im here scratching my forehead. Debating.Trying to hold back long enough. But the rope is pulling me closer and closer to its sharpness. This is not even a debate anymore. I have to wait it out. But i dont think i cannnnnnnn.............

[Sanguis]

Originally Posted by justalittleparanoid

I am not sure i can do this. I wanted to be cut free for my 20th birthday. so i can have a fresh start. But I started reading a book. Then I read one of my books that helps me not to cut. And it made it worse!!!!!!!!!! I dont know what i should do. Im confused. I dont want to do this. It was going to be my new years resolution. Not to do it anymore. I thought that i was compleatly over it. I guess im not. Im here scratching my forehead. Debating.Trying to hold back long enough. But the rope is pulling me closer and closer to its sharpness. This is not even a debate anymore. I have to wait it out. But i dont think i cannnnnnnn.............

I'm sorry you're having such a rough time dealing with this. I'm dealing with the same thing in a way, and I know how hard it is and how much it sucks. Have you tried doing other things than reading, like movies, sleep, games? Try as hard as you can to beat the urge; it's hard, but you'll fell a lot worse if you cut.
I'm here if you need to talk.

-Sanguis

[MINIME]

Im sorry that the book triggered you. How r u?