[navihahn]

Hi, im 20 i have been cutting for a while and last night i went crazy cut 14 times all over, and i want to stop but idk how...im scared

[Sannah]

Please be careful! Are you in therapy? Are you dealing with some pretty stressful things right now?

[tori2b]

Originally Posted by navihahn

Hi, im 20 i have been cutting for a while and last night i went crazy cut 14 times all over, and i want to stop but idk how...im scared

I know how you to want to stop cutting but can't it's hard.
I've been doing it since 05 after I lost my brother and nephew in may.
I also want to stop and I've told people that but when I get upset the rage is intense so I came across this page to get help with my iusses.
I hope that we both can learn to control this and I hope that today is better for you.

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by tori2b

when I get upset the rage is intense.

Are you in therapy to learn how to deal with your feelings?

[tori2b]

Originally Posted by Sannah

Are you in therapy to learn how to deal with your feelings?

I was for a while but she broke the trust by letting my sister know what we were talking about and since then I haven't seen anyone else.I know that not all of them are like that but it's for becasue I'm a very private person and I just don't talk to just anyone at not face to face about my feeling and thoughts

[DoggyBonz]

Originally Posted by navihahn

Hi, im 20 i have been cutting for a while and last night i went crazy cut 14 times all over, and i want to stop but idk how...im scared

Above the postings on this page are some great resources for people about cutting, have you taken a look at these yet? As everyone has mentioned are you seeing a therapist or do you know of one that you can call. You don't have to find the perfect person right now what might be helpful is to start the process and talk with different people to find your fit.

Are you in school? Is there anyone you can speak to there? There are a lot of professional resources out there and depending on the area you live in there are also support group and therapists that have been dealing with this for a long time.

Here is what I want you to know. You are not alone, you are still a wonderful person who is reaching out for help, and you must be in a lot of pain. This is hard stuff and people who want to get better are very courageous and introspective people. I know this is going to sound hard, but the next time that feeling comes if you can, try diverting it by doing anything for a little while. Going to the gym, taking a walk, talking to a friend, doing something for someone else, anything to either feel what is going on or divert your attention. Just because you cut does not mean you won't get better.

You have already taken the first step by posting here and sounds like you have quite an amazing journey ahead of you...

Please keep us informed

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by tori2b

I was for a while but she broke the trust by letting my sister know what we were talking about and since then I haven't seen anyone else.I know that not all of them are like that but it's for becasue I'm a very private person and I just don't talk to just anyone at not face to face about my feeling and thoughts

Tori, yeah, the therapist is supposed to hold confidentiality! There are good therapists out there and a therapist would be really helpful to you to work throught this. I hope you reconsider and find another therapist......

[Miracle1986]

Originally Posted by navihahn

i want to stop but idk how...im scared

Tori,
In my opinion, the first step down the road to recovery is having the sincere desire to stop.
You have taken that step and now we will be here to walk down the road with you.
(((safe and comforting hugs)))

[tori2b]

Originally Posted by Sannah

Tori, yeah, the therapist is supposed to hold confidentiality! There are good therapists out there and a therapist would be really helpful to you to work throught this. I hope you reconsider and find another therapist......

I'm thinking about it cause I do need that one on one with a therapist.
That means letting my guard down to let someone in and open up to them.Think you for your advice this site is full of them.

[tori2b]

Originally Posted by Manda86

Tori,
In my opinion, the first step down the road to recovery is having the sincere desire to stop.
You have taken that step and now we will be here to walk down the road with you.
(((safe and comforting hugs)))

Thank you very much and it's comforting to know that there's support and people that understand.I just need to that I'm safe when these feelings and thoughts come to surface so I could be able to handle them.

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by tori2b

I'm thinking about it cause I do need that one on one with a therapist.
That means letting my guard down to let someone in and open up to them.

Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!

[DoggyBonz]

Originally Posted by tori2b

I was for a while but she broke the trust by letting my sister know what we were talking about and since then I haven't seen anyone else.I know that not all of them are like that but it's for becasue I'm a very private person and I just don't talk to just anyone at not face to face about my feeling and thoughts

As was said before therapists are legally bound to hold information confidential unless they feel you are suicidal or homocidal. In college I had a therapist call my dad and share confidential information and it was completely unprofessional. My dad was the one who told me (he is a lawyer) and suggested that I find a different therapist.

The good news is that there are really good therapists out there who won't break that trust. I would mention what happened to you in the first session and find out where they are at with this type of information to increase the trust.

Good for you in realizing you need the help and going after it. Please keep us informed - you are not alone in cutting nor in having confidential information shared. You can get through this, others have and we will be here for you.

[navihahn]

Is there any place that i can go to for, like an online shrink?

b/c i wana talk to someone but not in person...free would be great..im a college student haha

[tori2b]

Originally Posted by navihahn

Is there any place that i can go to for, like an online shrink?

b/c i wana talk to someone but not in person...free would be great..im a college student haha

Yes I'm seeing a therapist and I'm on some medicine that they say will help(Pristiq 50mg).I've only been on it for four days but things are starting to look bright.Thanks for your advice.