Has anyone ever felt the urge to SI just for the sake of SIing? I mean like you want to SI but you're not depressed or manic of whatever sets you off? I'm not feeling these urges right now so don't get the wrong idea. I've been thinking about how I react to different kinds of emotions, which ones make me want to SI, which ones don't, and I came across this the other day and I resisted, but I'm just wondering if any of you have felt the same. One of these days I'll have this SI thing all figured out.

[inkblot]

I haven't done SI, but I have done some purging a few times just for the hell of it, to see if I could still do it.

Yeah, that's how I started. Cutting just because. Just because I have the blade. Now it's more like I have the blade now and I might not later, might as well use it. Same idea. Been feeling the same way recently when ever I got home. I dunno...

[mortimer]

That's why I do most of the time. "Hell, I got nothing better to do."

That's probably one of the more disturbing things, I can be triggered to do it, but also just do it for whatever. o_o

[jetblackaura]

I do indeed. It's quite a weird thought.

[ickydog2006]

Sometimes. Most of the time I do it to stop a panic attack. Especially if I'm home alone with a gun in the house then I SI just to keep me from doing worse. Sometimes I just feel the urge. No reason except this craving for it. I never have done it without the craving or when I'm in panic.

Thanks for the input guys.