Sexual abuse turns into sexual addiction as an adult

I was molested when I was six years old. My sexual addiction mirrors my sexual abuse. I have an oral fixation cuz when I was molested it included oral sex with an adult male. I have been sexually permiscuous for years. And it is no longer exciting or fun. It is stressful and I don't know why I still do it. I feel like my brain is hardwired for impulse control problems and i am permanently damaged. I have thought about suicide for years. Eventually I will probably do it. i won't be surprised

I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling so much at the moment. Unfortunately, it is quite common with abuse that the patterns are repeated and it can cause more pain in the long run. Have you ever spoken to anyone about your past or what you are feeling? It sounds like it might help to see your doctor and seeing what they can do to help you get through this.