Confession - Trigger

I'm 16 years old
I was 6 years old when I experienced my parents slept together by accident, I was playing under their bed.
I became horny at the age of 12.
I started looking for censored images at 13, I like to watch nude woman but never a sexual intercourse.
But my search for nude picture woman are always accompanied with XXX websites.
So I became more and more exposed to sexual intercourse and got a habit from looking them.
I'm now seeking for adult games, reading adult comics and staring at adult websites as for my pleasure.
I get horny whenever a star was exposed with nude photos, a semi-nude female or a hint of sexual intercourse.
I hate myself, whenever I reflected back to my past : when I was still called as innocent - I literally didn't know what 69 represents, what condom were.
I have a boyfriend now. I don't want him to know how dirty I am, and I need to confess my sickness to someone. Just someone.
That's my confession.

Just my opinion, lonely, but I don't think you have any reason to confess; you haven't done anything wrong.

I don't mean to invalidate your feelings. I just think you sound normal and no more "dirty" than anyone else.

hi lonely, i agree with slothrop . i dont think you are 'dirty', or guilty of anything wrong. but it sounds like this is causing you a lot of distress - do you have anyone you can talk it over with? i would suggest a therapist, but GPs can also be great when it comes to sexual issues.

If you think you are seriously addicted to pornography, you can look up therapists that might help you break the addiction. However, I don't think your viewing of this material makes you dirty or disgusting. Maybe you have been repeatedly told by society and your family that porn is gross and those that look at it are gross, but it is natural. If you find it is inhibiting your daily life and relationships you might want to seek out help to control it.

While you may have developed an addiction to porn from all your past looking you are in no way what so ever dirty.... you where simply curious as a child and when left unsupervised you found a way to fulfill that curiosity.

hi. Your not dirty or wrong. But the porn can become a habit and can distort the reality of a sexual relationship which is why its not really recommended for a person under age. . I'm not going to lecture you though because it hard when you have been exposped to sex as a young girl. your boyfriend probably has been curious about porn before. It wont wreck your sex life, you might know more positions than him though. maybe search the net for info thats been written for young people about sex. Go ask alice is a great site to look at.

Pretty much what the others said.

I watched porn for the first time when I was 16. I found the VHS with my sister from my dad's bedroom. I am so glad that my sister and I didn't watch it together.
It was nothing like I imagined... I couldn't eat for a while and I hated my dad for... I don't know for how long... I was quite traumatized...

anyways... Now I am looking back... I can laugh about it.
Don't worry, you are not dirty at all...
It's all natural...