[rainman]

Hey guys,
Just signed up to the forums to get a little feedback on what is going through my head. I've been suffering from unwanted sexual thoughts (homosexual) for the last 2.5 months and i've been very depressed about it. At first i didn't know what it was but after doing some research, I diagnosed myself with OCD. I also have an appointment with a psych in a few days.
After discovering that this is an illness and realising that what im thinking isn't real, the thoughts have disappeared a little bit. Is this normal for these too disappear after only a few days? Since they have disappeared i feel as if i've just accepted them and now i'm the person of my thoughts which is pissing me off. I seriously don't know where my head is right now. Is this normal too be going through this? Am i recovering from this? Shouldn't i be happy that the thoughts have subsided?

Thoughts guys?

Thank you

[Mike_J]

I don't think any of us have complet contol of our thoughts. I don't think there is anything wrong with the thoughts you are having.
I think it is very natural to have sexual thoughts that you don't always understand or that you know you wouldn't acutally do if given the chance.
And I don't think sexual thoughs are something that you need to recover from.
Just my thoughts.

[lynn P.]

I want to point out first that I support gay rights and my own brother was gay. Usually if someone has homosexual thoughts I would encourage them to accept and explore. You do mention you're not happy and these are obsessive thoughts, so this is why I'm speculating you probably aren't homosexual. I have dealt with this before in the Q&A section, where a person had OCD and kept obsessing about taboo thoughts --the poster was worried she might commit incest and then worried about being homosexual.

It's good you have an appointment with your doctor because only they can diagnose OCD. If you actually have it - it's fairly common to have obsessive thoughts about what would be taboo to you(not to others). You can solve this question easily - what sex have you been attracted to since you were a kid?? To answer your question - yes it would be normal to have the thoughts decrease - because now you know the thoughts come from an illness and doesn't represent your true feelngs or intentions. The best way to handle unwanted thought aside from taking proper meds, is to recognize they're there, but don't react to them. Recognize, filter them and don't worry. Keep up posted and please let me know how the doctors apppointment goes. Good luck.



*I want to emphasize that I normally wouldn't encourage a person who I felt was actually truly gay, to repress or deny their feelings.*