not a sexual identity issue, but a memory of being bullied

i just wanted to get this out there... to share what happened to me in middle school. At the time I didn't even know i was bisexual (which i know that i am now). It was in middle school, in the gym locker room, where I would get bullied and teased a lot. a lot of rumors got spread about negative things about me, like that i had lice, which i didnt have. Anyway, students started this rumor that i was lesbian. I dont know or remember where it generated from, because i never did anything lesbian-like (whatever that is like) or felt any interest in women at the time. yet they would kick me and push me around saying i was a lesbian and i lost many friends because they were afraid of me, for being lesbian. which i kinda wasnt. (well, you know. with the whole "im bisexual now" part). Anyway... i just remember it and it hurts thinking about it. even if i really was lesbian, I shouldn't have been treated that way. i hated middle school, and this is mostly why. glad it's over now. although, i also almost got kicked out of a private christian college for "seeming to display gay tendencies". (At the time i was christian and believed it was wrong to be anything other than heterosexual, so I suppressed my affection for women) I was really close to my best friend, but people started thinking we were lesbian together, which we werent at all. I never did anything "lesbian-like" with her. Anyway, i just wanted to let it all out. knowing now that it was unfair to treat me that way even if i did act or was lesbian. (which yknow, im bisexual now, bla bla bla). Maybe I've always been bisexual and that made me act different from others, without realizing it, so they saw it in me even when i didnt know i had it in me. Either way i should not have been treated that way! GRRR!

I hate how people especially children of the age you are describing act. I went through similar things without the sexual undertones though in elementary school. I'd get picked on a lot for being different. It seems like so many people just need a scapegoat.

I agree, no one should be treated that way! *hugs*

I agree with turquoisea. It's just awful how kids that age will unmercifully bully someone who they think is "different", that is isn't like them. Remember it's because at that age a lot of kids are really unsure about who they are and are afraid of anything different than what they precieve to be the norm.

((((krisakira))))
People (mainly family...lol) often assume I'm lesbian, and although I'm not bullied in any way from that, being assumed to be gay by generally homophobic people is a pretty frustrating situation sometimes. Middle school kids seem particularly cruel about these kinds of things. No one should be bullied for any reason, especially sexuality. Even if theyre wrong about it lol. But hey, here's one good side. They were obviously the idiots in the situation not you

On a bit of a side note, I was almost kicked out of a christian school too, for slightly different reasons. For example writing rock music lyrics in bible classes and church
I wonder what would've happened if they found out I liked the preacher's daughter...

Why cant we be ourselves, why do we have to put labels on ourselves, why do others label us? Insecurity that's why. Just be happy with who you are, be polite and treat people how you want to be treated no matter what sex they are. Love is not a crime, envy, lust, greed are all things to avoid not love.