I'm feeling teary at the moment which might be PMS. I just want to vent out and I hope you lot can give me advice. Last week I dumped my boyfriend because I was fed up with me being paranoid and he lied to me. I just feel like I wasn't for love. I saw a couple on the train platform thingy while waiting for a train home and the thought "I want to kill myself" came into my mind and they were kissing and it made me jealous. I just hate seeing couples and I thought why should I have a relationship? There's more to life than love and so on. When I was on the train, I wanted to cry because I feel sorry for myself and I feel like I won't have a love in my life. I started pinching myself and I tried to hold back the tears. Little tears came out of my eyes and I wiped them away. I came home and into my room and I started crying and I punched myself in the head. I have discovered something... why do attractive girls have boyfriends? And not me? (Oh my I'm beginning to cry as I type this out) So I must be ugly? Later in life if I don't have a boyfriend, I might as well take my own life. So I'll never get a boyfriend..... I'll be on my own suffering with my mood swings. I just feel like crying forever, This must be PMS because I'm not normally like this. Everyone is sooo lucky because they have boyfriend and girlfriends... I'm just a alien not from this world but from somewhere else. Yeah I'm weird but I feel like I wasn't meant to have a boyfriend. On the other hand, I'm here to be hated and I wish someone could beat me up. I wish I was aborted when I was in my mum's womb. I'm nothing interesting. I'm just a worthless little piece of crap. I'm not going to kill myself, I'll just cry until I have a headache.

[notablackbarbie]

oh (((happycheeks)))

Thanks....

Hello, happycheeks. Is there somewhere on campus you can go to get help for your concerns? Perhaps a student health department?

Originally Posted by TheByzantine

Hello, happycheeks. Is there somewhere on campus you can go to get help for your concerns? Perhaps a student health department?

I'm not sure. I'll be okay.

[Confusedinomicon]

I'm pretty sure that most universities have a health care area! I have been going to mine for the past two years and it has saved my life. I wouldn't trade that place for anything because they've gone out of their way to make sure I'm fine, even through the darkest times.

If you're still in college, you're still young. Give yourself the benefit of the doubt and let yourself blossom. Most of my friends in college are single too!

Originally Posted by Confusedinomicon

I'm pretty sure that most universities have a health care area! I have been going to mine for the past two years and it has saved my life. I wouldn't trade that place for anything because they've gone out of their way to make sure I'm fine, even through the darkest times.

If you're still in college, you're still young. Give yourself the benefit of the doubt and let yourself blossom. Most of my friends in college are single too!

I haven't heard of a health care area Maybe because you live in America and I like in the UK so it's different. Thanks for your reply.

[IceCreamKid]

I want to cry when I see you write about mistreating yourself. I wish I had a nice daughter to love and take care of. So...maybe you've already heard this advice, but I still think it is a good piece of advice and if I ever want a boyfriend again, this is what I will do: get out and do the things that interest you. If you like animals, get involved in animal charities or rescue groups; if you like books, join a book club, etc. and while you are enjoying yourself doing an activity or hobby you like, you can keep an eye out at the same time for eligible boyfriend material. A lot of people have hobbies and interests of all kinds outside of their work and classes, so if you pursue your own interests then if you meet someone you will already have something in common.

Originally Posted by IceCreamKid

I want to cry when I see you write about mistreating yourself. I wish I had a nice daughter to love and take care of. So...maybe you've already heard this advice, but I still think it is a good piece of advice and if I ever want a boyfriend again, this is what I will do: get out and do the things that interest you. If you like animals, get involved in animal charities or rescue groups; if you like books, join a book club, etc. and while you are enjoying yourself doing an activity or hobby you like, you can keep an eye out at the same time for eligible boyfriend material. A lot of people have hobbies and interests of all kinds outside of their work and classes, so if you pursue your own interests then if you meet someone you will already have something in common.

Thanks for your concern and advice. I don't think I could go to a club. I am shy and my shyness gets in the way. I can't even speak properly when I speak to people At college, I try to speak to a tutor and I don't know how to say what I need to say. My head gets in a mess when I speak. Thanks for your advice I appreciate it.