ASexuality or Control?

My ex Rondy who I miss dearly as bad as he was. He started out full of smiles and seemed infatuated with me. He got very disrespectful and abandoned me within half a year. We both have bipolar disorder, Ron has serious heath problems and diabetes. Ron is on many medications.

The man always talked about wanting a piece of me and showed me his tongue enough lol. I suspected he was into men. He denies anything of the sort. He hung out with 2 many men by coincidence who wanted him sexually, than he gets older and bashes them when he meets me. When we got close in private he would not sleep with me. He loved breasts but no sex.

He said he was waiting till the right moment. Ron procrastinates with everything and does the opposite of what he promises or says he won't do. Why would such a sexy man lead me on with so many mind games. Was I a victim a front possibly? I believe he is asexual, but would an asexual talk so sexually and love breasts like Ron?

Ron had grown kids from other women. He wanted a baby with me. He made comments once in awhile that seemed to reflect on him and his small penis. He also said women control men with sex.

He was controlling with his false promises and giving me keys to his apt that don't open the door. He wasn't around for me much outside our workplace. Yet he got so angry when I told him I talk to an ex. Ron liked him me to sit around and wait for him, everything is for him and him only.

This sexless controlling relationship traumatized me, Only recently have I discovered asexuality. I loved this man and he led me on with mindgames and never any sex. Than 1 day he stopped calling. I gave him so much. I feel like I have a complex now. I am strong willed.

Sometimes I think it was racism what happened and a ploy to break down my inner strength. 1 day my ex was shreiking @ me and emotionally beating another light skinned person down worse in the same room. Right before he let me go. My ex was a different race. I miss him alot.