[coalboilermn]

I am not an Adult Baby, and Have no interest in that. But ever since I was a little boy, I used to steal my baby brother and sisters diapers, wet them, and then as a teen i would get off after words pretending that the lower part of my body was a hot young girl all wet. To this very day I feel safe secure, and sometimes turned on wearing a diaper and wetting in it. I wear them on long trips, or to concerts, or when out having a drink or two. Just the thought of a woman wetting her pants, or peeing in a diaper drives me crazy. I have no idea why, I don't know where this comes from. I can recall as a kid around Kindergarten age, and up always wanting to be in diapers. I am 44 and have never yet found a woman ( at least one who will admit) to wearing diapers for fun. Only ones who wear them because they have to. yet I read stories on line, and hear stories of girls who pee for their boyfriends, etc. Why am I like this? There is a big part of me that wants this to go away. yet I have gone so long with diapers at night now, that I actually do wet the diaper in my sleep. I am now afraid to try to sleep with out them. I can put them away for a couple days, but then I get that strong need back. I have even worn them to work at times. I just feel so safe and secure. Do I need serious help???
Bryan

[Purple Heart]

You may want to explore this with a therapist. Looking at it deeply though wearing diapers as a young child may have got your a lot of love and attention. And maybe after you stopped wearing them as a child you weren't given as much attention or love? Just throwing that out there 'food for thought' but definitely see a therapist about it.

[Perna]

There is a diaper fetish and many people who enjoy similar feelings/activities to yours:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diaper_fetishism

[coalboilermn]

I actually have looked into the "fetish" but found most of them are also Adult babies. I really do not find any interest in that on my part, nor on my partners. I think I would really be turned off if she wanted me to feed her a bottle, and dress her like a little kid. That does not work for me at all. As to the young child thing....I am the oldest of 7 kids. And Mom not only babied me, but kept her thumb on me and did not let me out of the house to play with or meet any other kids until I got older. Maybe it did stem from a lack of attention after my sisters started being born....It really does not make any sense to me at all. i mean part of me is saying....Who in their right mind would want to pee on them selves. Yet at times, it is not only convenient but if a woman does it, it turns me on....Oh well....I have never talked to a therapist in my life. I used to believe that they were only for people who were insane! Now I am beginning to give insanity a different definition. Looking at this country, and other people, I no longer understand just what "Normal" is?????

[Typo]

Urine play and diaper fetishes do exist. There are many online communities where you can talk about it with others who share the same feelings. Maybe you could discuss it with a therapist if you aren't feeling comfortable with these feelings.

[salukigirl]

I would be concerned only because this seems to interrupt your daily life and basic relationships. Normally I don't have an issue with fetishes or just overall getting your rocks off on something "abnormal" but this sounds to have really taken control over your life. The fact that you have started wetting the bed is what really concerns me.

I totally agree with talking it through with a therapist. After so long of being IN the behavior and not being accepted for it by outsiders, it's good to hear that professional opinion. Also, if he/she doesn't see this as an issue, they may know sites or organizations where people with common interests/fetishes get together (i.e. specialty dating site).

As for what "normal" is? Your guess is as good as mine. Take a "normal" family. Parents, 3.2 kids and a dog. However, I know 2 people who aren't from a divorced home. Most of my friends either only have a sibling or like 5-6 siblings. Most of my friends have cats.....NOT dogs lol. Me....my parents were divorced when I was 6. Then remarried when I was 10ish. Dad divorced again when i was 17 and remarried again when I was 22. I still keep in touch with my "ex"step-mom and siblings while another sibling lives in GA and doesn't speak to anyone..........is that normal enough for ya? haha (hope my Jerry Springer family makes you feel a little less crazy)

[coalboilermn]

I have to say Salukegirl. Your right about the "normal" thing indeed. I am the oldest of 7 kids in my family. Dad and Mom stayed married long after they no loved each other "for the kids". Well you know what? We still got messed up from it. Might have been better if they had just divorced and been done with it. I love dogs. They are better than people to have as friends. They are always so happy to see you and be with you. My sister loves cats, and she says the same about them. I find cats to be way to independent for me. When my "kid" was still alive, he needed me all the time. He always wanted to be with me, and sit by my. He wanted to go for a ride in the car, and even snuggled under the covers with me. i really miss him!
Anyhow I don't really know that I am ready to give up this interest of mine. I feel so safe and secure when I wear them. It is not like I parade around the house wearing only a diaper, but every week evening, weekend, and at night I put them on instead of underwear. I can go to the store, if I get that sudden urge to go, I just relax and stand there in the Isle, and no one but me knows I just wet my self. Then I finish shopping, and go home. Change and just relax. I don't really see it as an abnormal way to live. Or do I? I really don't know what I think. UHG!

[FinalGrin]

I agree with an earlier post it sounds like diaper fetishism to me which is a distinct though connected group to adult babies. Perhaps you're just a diaper lover (or DL) as they say within the community. If it affects your daily life and causes you distress you should probably address those issues but it doesn't mean you have to give it up entirely or even necessarily explain it as long as you are happy and not hurting yourself or anyone else. You may want to try talking to some others within that community though, it may help.

Try for instance the forums on
dailydiapers.com