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Old Dec 01, 2011, 08:12 AM
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I decided to dye my hair back to brown because I don't think that blonde hair suits me anymore and I would like to go back to my original colour. I was a bit excited because I remembered a character in a show I liked had the same colour hair and when I dyed it I would look like her. When I get excited about things, I get a strange feeling that's sort of like blushing but not exactly. I started getting that feeling and came to the realization that that character was a girl and I was enjoy thinking about a girl and now I'm even more terrified. I wasn't thinking about boys and I don't know how I feel about them anymore. I feel so gay and now I think I do just like girls and it's an obvious lie to say I like boys. It's as if I feel nothing for them. I still have a little bit of hope though from how this started- I started doubting myself when a girl called me a lesbian (no proof) and that before that I had always liked men and enjoyed the thought of someday being with one. Thinking about that makes me feel like there's a possibility that this really is just in my head and that makes me happy. But when I stop thinking about it and start doing my own stuff I come back to a realization like this and start feeling like a lesbian again. I have to constantly think about the evidence of me being straight beforehand to get any relief. Then I start thinking that all this does sound like denial. I'm not at all convinced that I'm straight or that I'm not lying to myself. I don't want to ever be but now it feels like I want to be with a girl and it's really pissing me off.
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Old Dec 01, 2011, 09:59 PM
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Ok I have seen your posts in the past and I being Queer myself. You seem to be posting the same things even when others have responded to your posts. You are gay or straight, you obsessing and going on is not doing you any good and obviously the answers you have gotten in the past you have ignored.

You make it sound like if you aren't straight "OH MY BELLS!" life just isn't going to be alright. Well life does go on and people are happy being queer!

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Old Dec 02, 2011, 02:52 AM
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I feel so gay and now I think I do just like girls and it's an obvious lie to say I like boys
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now it feels like I want to be with a girl and it's really pissing me off.
Being lesbian doesn't have to be a problem. Being in denial is.

I think you need to face the reality.
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Old Dec 03, 2011, 07:22 PM
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Ummmmmm so why does being a lesbian have to be a bad thing?? I am a very happy lesbian and my wife turns me on so much. There is nothing wrong with that. Personally, I think it's gross to be with a guy. They are all corners and frankly "it" is just plain ugly! Also, why are their insides on the outside? Women are so curvy and soft and everything is where it should be, inside. Mmmm love it, love the women, I do.
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