[Lost&confused89]

Ok, so originally was afraid to write this... But, I think I'm gay. I think I love my boyfriend, I mean we get along sometimes, I get excited to see him. Sex is ok... But I'm constantly thinking about women looking at them... Even during sex, I think about what I could be doing to some random girl. I dont want to tell anyone, I feel embarrassed, ashamed, etc. being bi never bugged me because at least my outside relationship was with a man, and the world saw that. Plus, how do u find another gay person... Ugh, why can't I be straight and normal????

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You say that being bi never bugged you. So--you've known you're bisexual, and that was okay? Because you were with a guy so you could "appear normal"? Or could pretend to yourself that you were?

If you knew you were bisexual, then you really were already to the point that you knew you aren't hetero. That's beside the point now. Now you need to come to terms with being bisexual or--as you now suspect--lesbian.

As a single mom, you've got a lot of responsibility. I hope you can get a therapist or counselor with some special understanding in this gender issue. You have a lot of work to do and need lots of support. Some of that you can probably find on PC.

[Lost&confused89]

Right... Im looking for that help...

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Originally Posted by Lost&confused89

Plus, how do u find another gay person... Ugh, why can't I be straight and normal????

I'm right here, and I'm lesbian (ok, pansexual). Also, check out the LGBTQ forum right here on PsychCentral - you'll meet lots of us there.

There's nothing wrong with being gay. This is 'normal' for me. I personally can't ever imagine myself being straight, it's just not natural for me. And I love that I am capable of being true to myself.