[Ticli-Otops]

Everytime I have sex with someone. (Doesn't matter who it is.) I ALWAYS end up crying... but I hate myself if I choose not to have sex with them. It used to be that anything sexual brought back bad memories...but now it's just...no matter what's on my mind, if i'm having sex with someone...I just start getting more and more depressed and upset...until I just start bawling my eyes out. I don't understand.

[Harley47]

Hi Ticli. Love your avatar.

Do you think the memories you mentioned could still be at play? I know you specified that it happens no matter what is on your mind, but the memories are still there, you know? Have you spoken to a therapist about these things?

You have to understand that you, as an adult, have no reason whatsoever to feel upset or ashamed or whathaveyou for being with someone. You are an adult making a conscious decision to be with someone. You're not doing anything at all that is wrong. I don't doubt you know that, but I felt like it may be good to hear.

Please take care, and know I'm praying for you.

[unaluna]

oh yeah me too. I just figure I have got a boatload of repressed feelings. this is another reason I feel I kinda need to hook up with someone in the business, ya know? but I could just imagine my T saying, geez, I deal with crying womens all day l0ng, i'd like to come home and have a little fun, ya know??!! so I figure I better get it all figured out in session, cos the crying thing has already happened, and I just told the guy I didn't want to talk about it. I mean, it's a long story, right? like never ending.

[Big Mama]

Is it the memories of past issues or could it possibly be the emotions of release (Big O)
that have gotten there wires crossed. Release and relief that follows are often the same type of let down. Not let down like "that sucks", but let down of setting emotions free. I can understand emotions from past memories. I was raped at one point in time. It had an impact on my sex life for a while, for years actually. I learned to turn that off and enjoy but sometimes my signals would get crossed and I would cry after good sex. Weird. That was a long time ago. After sex with the same person for a long time I don't do that anymore either.