[archipelago]

This does feel uncomfortable which I feel needs to be said upfront. I have PTSD and most of it is based in sexual trauma. Still I have recovered substantially.

However, a recent incident that involved writing an email with sexual content while I was asleep on Ambien got me in so much trouble that I feel like my sexuality is taboo or something wrong.

I do have a partner but we haven't been sexual in a long time because he is older. So I have had to use self-stimulation, which came easily to me for a while, but now it's not working.

I am really craving the release, and do not want to seek out someone else though I have entertained the idea. It is just that my partner would feel terrible about this so I don't want to hurt him.

Still I want to be able to feel satisfied and it's so frustrating to try and feel like it's all wrong. I don't really know how to get out of this bind.

[hamster-bamster]

Many older men are OK. At any rate, can he at least bring you to orgasm every once in a while? Being old should not prohibit that.

[Big Mama]

Older an wiser. Toys maybe. He can use them on you you know. Would you both be willing to do that. Some guys are quite content to do that for you. toys for you to use alone maybe. Let him help choose or involve him in the decision making. My H and I have no issues w/ toys for one another. I like what I like, he likes what he likes. As long Is I keep him informed about my doings and he of his, we have no problems.