Issues I've Been Having

First off, I'm sincerely hoping for a conversation to help me figure out the root of my problem. It's incredibly important to me and it needs to be fixed. I can't fix it until I know what's going on. So, please, take pity on a poor neurotic bastard.

To cut to the chase: my penis is not working. I can't feel anything during sex or masturbation. Only at the absolute climax of masturbation do I feel much of anything. And even those are getting more and more rare. I've been sexually involved with my girlfriend for two months, now. She has yet to cause me to orgasm. I have to masturbate to finish. I can only feel her a little bit in certain positions and only without the condom, which I don't get to do often. My penis is just not sensitive and it's making me very insecure and very angry. I can and do still achieve and maintain erections. Just feel nothing. Which makes little sense to me. I can and do still achieve my full hardness and can perform. But, I feel like a human dildo, because I can't ****ing feel anything.

I'm diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and Dysthymic Disorder. I'm on 100mg of Seroquel and 60mg of Prozac. I am addicted to pornography and masturbate averaging once or twice a day.

I read that porn addiction and masturbation induced sexual exhaustion can cause similar problems, but the guys on the board I was reading it on, suggested it was my medication. My girlfriend thinks it's internalized trauma from my last relationship, where I was cuckold. I don't ****ing know.

Last night, I didn't take my Seroquel. Slept two hours. Yay. Didn't take my prozac this morning, so I didn't eat. That's how important this problem is to me and how serious I am about figuring out what's wrong with my junk. Tomorrow, I'm going to try and reschedule an appointment with my psychiatrist, to get his opinion and my medication altered. I just need your alls opinions, experiences, anecdotes, whatever. Anything and everything will help.

If it's important; I'm a nineteen year old white male, I weigh 170 lbs. And I'm 6'0" tall.

Seriously, your penis is working. But between the prozac (may be dulling sensation somewhat?) and your twice a day on your own, you aren't leaving enough time for desire to build up again? I know boys are different from girls, but yeah I would bet the meds are messing with your refractory period. At least in terms of you being in touch with your feelings. When I first started on prozac, I was announcing it to everybody, and a bagger told me (he would have been closer to your age) that he quit it when his gramma died cuz he didn't feel anything. I told him I didn't think I would have that problem cuz both my grammas*were already dead. So while it takes away bad feelings, it also takes away good feelings, and you're just kind of left with medium, more standard or reliable feelings? I would advise trying to find out what works, making adjustments to get what you really want back. Don't wack until after you've been with your gf, for example.

When I was on Prozac I had decreased sensitivity. I switched to another medication and the issue went away. Masturbating twice a day may be excessive and you may be decreasing your sensitivity because of that. Also the brain is the biggest sexual organ and watching pornography may dull your sense of excitement when with your gf. Also I would try and use some lotions to help soften the skin. Like palmer cocoa butter lotion. Dry skin on the penis can also decreases sensitivity. Also if you are applying too much pressure when by yourself, you may be desensitizing your nerve down there, and there is no way a vagina can match that.

@Hankster: So this sense of boredom and stoicism is a product of the prozac? Makes sense. And is the seroquel likely affecting me, too? So, try the things you both suggest and hopefully have the self control not to touch myself until I see my girlfriend.
@Adam: I figured I might have damaged some nerve endings. Hopefully a few weeks can ease that up. I understand that, from the plethora of articles on the porn addiction site. Try not to fap or watch porn, then. She did say my arms, legs, and penis felt a little dry. Really dry. So, yeah, I'll get some cocoa butter. If I do masturbate, use lubricant.

You both seem to think there are a number of psychological and physiological factors. Worth carpet bombing. Over stimulation, mental and physical. Dry skin. Medication. Is there anything I can do to help hasten this? Any supplement for libido/sensitivity, any food I can eat to help the natural stuff. I don't know where the hippie store is, but I'll find it. If you have any more comments or tidbits, I want to hear it.

I care about my babygirl. She gets upset if I can't cum, too. I don't want my sexyfine sweetheart to think I believe she's anything less than the most beautiful girl in the world. Sex is part of that. My personality does th e most of it, but I need to prove it.