Confused

While home for Thanksgiving, I was in my grandmother's room sending an email. My cousin came up and gave me a hug. He held on longer than what I wanted. I tried to stop twice but he continued to hold me. He eventually stopped the third time. When he was done he said, "That felt so good" or "You don't know how good that felt."

I now have my guard up as I've had other male cousins approach me. I'm generally nervous around men as I feel they are going to take advantage of me. After he said those words, I went downstairs because I had to present well to the family. I later went upstairs and cried. I don't know if I'm taking it too seriously. My guard is just up higher. Just when I thought I was beginning to trust men, this happens.