And yes, I know the obvious answer is to go have sex with someone. Unfortunately, I don't have anyone and no way to get anyone unless it's just a random stranger. Though I personally don't see the difference between that and masturbating—both of which give no satisfaction. I'm obsessed with connection with someone else and knowing that someone can actually like me that way. I'm on enough medication that I should have zero libido, so why do I think about it constantly!? Why do I dream excruciatingly vivid dreams of having sex? I feel like I'm starving…I have no peace and I'll never have peace.

And I really, really, really want to be with a guy, but I only have a chance with a girl so I should just settle for a girl for now? I'm not sure it would satisfy, but anything is better than nothing...

[Big Mama]

It sounds like first and foremost you need to talk to the P doc about your meds. Some meds can contribute to those feelings even though it is not common.

You also need to determine what you want. You shouldn't settle for one sex if you really are looking for the other sex. That will only hurt you mentally in the long run. Decide if you are gay, bi or straight and go from there. If you don't know experimenting is an option I suppose. Not one that I personally promote. Straight sex is the only one I can promote due to religious beliefs.

Decide on what you wish to pursue and take it from there. For you age it is not uncommon to have high sex drive. And to want a connection is built in to us a humans. We all desire to be loved an wanted, to be needed and to have a connection. That never goes away.

I am a very lonely individual and I so get how you feel about just wanting some one I can actually connect with. I have connections here on the computer, but I long for love and a real life connection. Weather it be an emotional connection as in a friend or a connection with my husband, as lovers do connect. Even though I am married I don;t have that connection and I do long for it and don't exactly know how to go about getting it.

So know that I do feel for you and I do understand and I hope that alone helps some.

Right now, I seem to be most attracted to men, but my sexuality seems to move back and forth over time. The problem is, men aren't attracted to me. So I suppose I wait around until I'm not attracted to men anymore? Or just wait until I have no interest in ever having sex anymore.

I would like to have a true connection too, but I feel I can at least get used to not having that. I just hope my body can get used to knowing I won't have sex with another person.