[Go Hungry]

This may get a bit graphic, but I'll try and keep it down to a dull roar.

As far as I know, I'm straight. Always have been. I was accused of being gay a lot when I was a kid, once even by a teacher who thought she was helping, but... I've always liked girls. I'm crazy about them.. like, obsessed with them. I messed around with a guy once when I was in college, but I didn't think that really counted, mainly because I still only wanted chicks afterwards. I guess I've been trying to rationalize it for years, and only when I just wrote that did I admit to myself. Yeah, okay. I'm a little gay.

But in a very very specific way. When it comes to men, I only fantasize about oral sex. Nothing else. Just that. I kissed a guy on a dare once at a party and nearly puked. The idea of men in general turns me off. But I think that under the really right circumstances, I would like to do that to a guy. Like, somebody I had extreme trust and friendship with.

So.. that's cool right?

[bighands]

Originally Posted by Go Hungry

This may get a bit graphic, but I'll try and keep it down to a dull roar.

As far as I know, I'm straight. Always have been. I was accused of being gay a lot when I was a kid, once even by a teacher who thought she was helping, but... I've always liked girls. I'm crazy about them.. like, obsessed with them. I messed around with a guy once when I was in college, but I didn't think that really counted, mainly because I still only wanted chicks afterwards. I guess I've been trying to rationalize it for years, and only when I just wrote that did I admit to myself. Yeah, okay. I'm a little gay.

But in a very very specific way. When it comes to men, I only fantasize about oral sex. Nothing else. Just that. I kissed a guy on a dare once at a party and nearly puked. The idea of men in general turns me off. But I think that under the really right circumstances, I would like to do that to a guy. Like, somebody I had extreme trust and friendship with.

So.. that's cool right?

Cool, yes. Honestly, I think we're all "a little gay" whether or not we'll readily admit it. I could never have a relationship with a man but sex under very specific and controlled circumstances, sure. Hey my favorite fantasy has always been the hot female celebrity of the week with a large beautiful pecker. It's just a fantasy, no big deal.

[bixkf]

Originally Posted by bighands

Cool, yes. Honestly, I think we're all "a little gay" whether or not we'll readily admit it. I could never have a relationship with a man but sex under very specific and controlled circumstances, sure. Hey my favorite fantasy has always been the hot female celebrity of the week with a large beautiful pecker. It's just a fantasy, no big deal.

You're on to something BigHands. I'm bi and my dream partner is my wife with an 8" penis. Too bad it can't happen, cause it would give me all I have now, plus what I can't get from her now.

[RTerroni]

It could be that you are just wanting to prove something or are going through some type of phase, when I was younger I sometimes kissed other boys who were part of a group that I was part of but I never ever considered myself to be gay.

[zombie paloma]

I had a boyfriend at uni and I enjoyed some innocent exploring, but I didn't feel the emotional connection and completeness I get when I am with a woman. I realised when I was quite small that I was attracted to other girls and it was only in my early 20s that I allowed it to become reality. I think people are keen to pigeon hole themselves, when really we can have fluidity and be in love with someone's personality or soul too. Good luck and have fun :-D

[bighands]

Here's another thought. I'm sure you've heard the question... "Why do dogs lick themselves?" Of course the answer is always "Because they can". You've probably also hear people say that if men could blow themselves they'd probably never leave the house. To me, if this is just a fantasy, what you're describing kinda fits in there. Haha. Work on your flexibility and your problem is solved!

On the other hand, if you're saying you want to actually have a real life "suck buddy", well then it makes sense that you probably are at least bisexual. But, this kind of situation would probably be REALLY hard to find in the safe, trusting way you want without extra baggage you don't want.