ASPD and sexual orientation issues

I am a self-suspected sociopath (and I'm sure, but nobody believes me), but I have sort of sexual orientation issues. Since I was a kid, I've had always find boys as being cute, and at age of 11 I found out I was gay. I am completely ok with that, but for the last two years I have the feeling that I might be heterosexual. At the beginning I was scared, but after I tried to make sex with another boy and I was disgusted, I started to feel I am straight. What makes me still think is that I can't accept that I'm straight, and I look at good-looking men with disgust, yet I still find them prettier than women. Complicated enough, I stare at women although I don't want to. I try to have sexual fantasies with men, but sometimes I turn up to women, and I like it, but I'm kinda frustrated. I call this fear. What sociopathy links here is, since some time I started to think that while having sexual fantasies with women I force myself into the frustration I call fear. Also, I imagine recieving attention from boys, who turn into girls in the fantasies, and sometimes I dream about women, just standing there, or talking... I don't want to complicate things more - the sociopath in me already tried to change the truth - but I want to know if ASPD are having such issues.

confusion or issues surrounding sexual orientation are not associated with ASPD.

I think something to keep in mind is that sexuality is fluid and not black and white. Most people fall into the "gray" area sexually. So rather than trying to force yourself into a narrow category, let yourself enjoy what you enjoy; maybe it's women one day, maybe it's men the next, maybe it's a romantic relationship with men, but only a physical one with women. Whatever is you is right for you.