[silentlyscreaming]

OK, so this is kinda embarrassing........

I dunno about my sexuality. I have had sexual experinces with both men and women, and feel pretty blaza about them. I don't even know if I enjoyed the experiences.
I never feel sexual. I don't perve, I just don't find anyone attractive.
Is there something wrong with me?? or could this be a reaction to a violent rape that happened several years ago??

AARRRGGGGHHHHH

This is driving me insane!!!

[Christine329]

It most certainly can be the result of the rape. I am a rape survivor as well and for years I have struggled with relationships and sexuality. Have you gotten therapy? It helps, I was in and out of therapy since the rape and13 years later Im back on the couch talking about the rape. You may be have accepted it but you will never get over it but therapy can help you cope with it and learn to love yourself and others again.

[gostryter]

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i would thinkg the rape definitely has something to do with this...your confusion about your sexuality, your not feeling sexual, not enjoying being with someone....

NO, there is NOTHING wrong with you!! don't try to focus on labeling yourself right now!!

if you feel an attraction to someone - male or female - and you want to be intimate - then that's ok.

just be cause you have been with a woman doesn't mean your are a "lesbian" or because you've been with men too that you are "bi-sexual" those are all just labels!

you are a kind beautiful person who deserves to be happy and if you want sex with a man or woman to be part of your life - then the focus should be on discovering how you can enjoy that...not whether it makes you gay or straight!

What am I? you asked...you are a wonderful person who i has been a great friend to me!!!

in this day and age you can be whatever you want to be is the simple answer, so stop stressing about life and start living it, then and only then wll you "find" your place of choosing.