I am traumatized and age bothers me for a very good reason

I am sitting here like pretty happy and impressed with my maturity and life experience. I basically think it is ******** when people say age is just an age we all know older people have life experience so don't give me that ****. I had a 51 guy wanting to sleep with me thats disgusting and particulary traumatizing because I had a 40 year old uncle when I was 14 want to sleep with me so guys after a certain age triggers trauma in me I even think 26 is wayyy to old. Don't I think a 51 year old is gross? To be honest I am only on a porn website so I can talk to others that's how sad and trapped i've become in my social isolation that a fapping website has been come a meeting ground to talk to others. Honestly what the **** is with people who are sexually attracted to younger girls so gross!

Well gee, you went to a porn site looking to make friends. What did you expect would happen? Of course creepy old guys want your naked pix and dirty talk because that is exactly why they are going to a porn site to begin with!!!

Yeah I know that but I am such a loser and lonely person that I used a porn site to get friends how sad just deleted it today I don't really see a point in having it

Try OKCupid, they will let you determine the age range you want to mingle with. And it is good to make friends as well.

Yeah, I have been so harsh and just assuming that I am too different for anyone to have incommon with me but it is all lies all the people that I have as friends have the same core values that I have I just have to stop being so harsh on myself. I wish it was easy and thank you I haven't tried OKcupid. There is one thing I have successfully done in all of this is avoid getting close to males and weither that be friendships or anything I know how overwhelmed they can make me especially when I think every poliet male wants to date me. Then I get confused so I just left it I do have some males that I have been able to some myself from meshing with myself and I have certainly let go of my obsession with controlling my love life and just letting it come

This might be too much but how old are you? You said that even 26 seems too old for you, so I wondered. It's totally normal, I think, for a teenager or 20-something to be creeped out by a 50 year old hitting on them, even without past trauma.

I am 20 years old

If you have a smartphone, you may like an app called Meetup. Log in, choose your city, create a list of your interests, and shazam, you will find groups of people who have the same interests as you in your area to hang out, go to the movies, go on a hike, paint and draw, meditate, etc. Check it out.

That's a cool idea.