A song

How to deal,
What to feel,
When to kneel,
How can I conceal,
I’m a sex addict,
Back four years ago I found this place on the internet I went I saw I liked I came back,
My mind was young and raw I never saw what I had seen that day so I came back this time no slack it was a full fledge attack on myself,
I was depressed and lonely, hmmm sounds kinda how I am now don’t it?
Anyways F it, whats it matter I tell my story to others only to hear a goodbye not a hello,
I knock on the tv waiting for those I love to come through and hug me and swallow all my pain, oh **** then it starts to rain,
Like being homeless my days are repetitive I can’t see rather be what it was that I did see,
My drives gone now alls I got is a hard drive full of porn I sworn I’d never get into,
Now I’m in it afraid cradled like a lab rat waiting to be exterminated,
But wait I’m just 18,
Or wait am I fifty with a 18 years of memory?
I wish I had a family…no I mean a real one,
Now I’m broken like a clock that stop ticking,
Now my lifes ticking just waiting for the day I lay to rest,
Would that be the best?
I dunno how is it I can’t see, T?
Anyway goodbye…till next time…hopefully then I can see.

Do you have a LINK to this song?

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I like the song Creed sings.... about lust of the eyes / beauty

Beautiful

She wears a coat of color
Loved by some, feared by others
She's immortalized in young men's eyes
Lust she breeds in the eyes of brothers
Violent sons make bitter mothers
So close your eyes, here's your surprise

Beautiful is empty
Beautiful is free
Beautiful loves no one
Beautiful stripped me

In your mind she's your companion
Vile instincts often candid
Your regret is all that's left

Beautiful is empty
Beautiful is free
Beautiful loves no one
Beautiful stripped me

She told me where I'm going
And it's far away from home
I think I'll go there on my own

I wrote the song.