Ever had a dream about yourself?

Jun 24, 2009, 07:07 PM

No, not a dream about you in X situation, but just a dream about you in general?

It's hard for me to remember this dream...really hard. Not because it was a bad dream, but it's the kind after you wake up that 50% of it immediately dissolves and leaks out of your brain.

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Primary theme of this dream: Rejection.

But yeah, somehow Sako and I became separate people, it was odd. She seemed pretty sad a lot, always looking away and at the ground, never really in the eye. Convinced nobody would like her anyways. My kindess and reassurance didn't really break through those feelings. We were still together a lot, but it wasn't quite happy fun bonding time because of this.

Oh, and we were actually doing stuff in the dream too! There were parts where the both of us and my brother were at this sort of pavillion place where a bunch of kids were. They didn't really pay much attention to us, doing their kid things but we'd still watch them. It wasn't until the end of the dream when we walked up to this kid and asked if he was going to sit with this kid (who is my friend actually and he is in elementary school, not mentioning his name) once I'm gone because he aparently was one of his friends who we saw playing with him etc. He said he wasn't, and was acting like he's never even seen the kid before. My brother was confounded by this, saying that he was his friend, that he shook his hand. All in all it was odd.

After this I went back to Sako, and kept reassuring her that we were friends. She says nobody would ever like her anyways. I told her otherwise, and asked why she'd think such a thing when she suddenly snapped that she sold her soul. I felt a mixture brewing between pity and sadness for her and the feeling of well, you made your own bed now you have to go lie in it.

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But y'know, I've never had a dream like that before!

I could give more details, like how the pavillion was really like a bus stop and all of the kids were basically sitting at those giant picnic tables, and the grass was such a bright and vivid green and so were the leaves on the trees and there was a river near by that was also a very vivid blue, and how it initially hurts though walking up to it because of all the gravel on the grund and I'm barefoot for whatever reason, and when we are in school it seems as though we are the only people there and how all of the colors seemed so bright and clear though the setting itself was blurred. How Sako actually looked like me (or had a resemblance) but was skinnier, had longer, more reddish, and more curly hair, and actually had little bat wings sticking out of her back and how she always seemed to be sitting hunched over and curled up.

I awoke from that dream in a daze, and emotionaly fragile like my kid self. So it didn't really help that dad started ranting about how he does all of the work in the house, I was practically going to cry! I wanted to go up to my room but in order to do that I had to go through the room where he was to go to the stairs, and I was really afraid of that so I just stared at the light and shadows on the floor until he stopped for awhile...and you know, I was about to breakdown then and there! Hyperventalating and everything! But then my mom came with her birthday present and wished me a happy birthday: I got two beatutiful cards and $50 and my two favorite books that I requested. I felt a lot better, and was all better when I started to reread the first book (The Sight) I might continue to reread it later because I can't wait to reread it's sequel (Fell) so now I'm feeling all better.

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