[ccjbrown]

I am not going to post anything on here that probably wouldn't be allowed, my wish is to simply get some input on this:

I have had a reoccurring dream since I was about 4 years old. I was raised in a very strict family concerning sexual subjects and was a "late bloomer" knowing about the whole concept.

I am very emotionally tied to this dream and it bothers me, as I should not have known ANYTHING remotely like what I started dreaming about so young. I have a history of "suppressing" difficult memories.

What do you think the chances are that I was possibly sexually abused? Are there any methods available to "uncover" hidden memories?

I've been doing that a lot lately, hiding memories. Maybe I got to a point where my brain couldn't hold any more traumatizing experiences. My husband is the one who caught onto it, really. He brought up the man who raped me years ago and it's like I had completed forgotten he had ever even been attracted to me.

I don't understand this and it's bothering me. Any thoughts? Please don't be harsh, I am very sensitive about this subject as I have had multiple bad experiences in this department.

[AShadow721]

It's more than possible that there was sexual abuse, since you've had this nightmare over and over. I couldn't imagine having that dream at 4 years old if something didn't happen to you, or you didn't witness anything sexual going on in front of you (which is sexual abuse anyway).

When I was a young child and some other kids would say things about sex, I felt like I had no idea what they were talking about. I also felt like I didn't understand the concept at all and I was sexually abused. It was really, because I didn't want to hear about it. Suppressed memories come from avoiding and dissociating. You would completely avoid the thought of the subject.

Intense psychotherapy and hypnosis can uncover memories we've suppressed. However, for me sometimes I just remember things when reminded of it like you explained, or it seems just out of the blue.

Anyway, you can post what your dream is about and use the trigger icon for your thread.