Just realized

I was reading up on hypnogogic and hypnopompic hallucinations a few days ago, and at first I thought the only ones I've had ever are Hypnogogic hallucinations (which occur just before sleep) and one time I had a hypnopompic hallucination where I woke up and saw a black cat and that lasted for maybe half a minute--- or felt like it at least. But then I continued reading and realized that some of my experiences that I attributed to having a psychological source could very well be hypnogogic hallucinations as well. These include the feeling of falling into myself and a feeling I can only describe as energy bouncing back and forth between my eyes and brain like a pinball (there is also the feeling of movement like swinging back and forth or like being on a boa but I'm not counting these since I can actually manipulate them).

it's actually kind of a relief but truth be told it makes me feel a little dumb for not knowing sooner and jumping to conclusions. I should really be thankful that I'm not as messed up as I initially thought but I feel the need to apologize to people as if I was being deceptive for personal enjoyment and gain.

I do have suspicions that I have narcolepsy (for reasons other then the hallucinations) but like 99% of the other issues I have it just comes and goes and never seems to be consistent or severe enough to warrant any sort of diagnosis.

I don't think you'd have to suspect you had narcolepsy, all those around you would know as you would literally fall asleep for several minutes. It's a chronic medical condition all on its own, not related to any mental illness.

Why are you thinking you have sleep disorders instead of mental illnesses, or vice versa?

like I said before just like everything else it seems it comes and goes to the point where it really doesn't warrant a diagnosis.

Aside from the hallucinations I didn't really want to get in depth about other stuff but YES I have had sleep episodes where it is pretty much physically impossible to avoid sleep. Literally just sitting in class and all of a sudden BAM. If I try to keep my eyes open I got double vision, tried to stay sitting up straight and I had to keep catching myself so I didn't fall out of my chair, I tried my best to pay attention however after maybe a few minutes it's as if sounds distorted and it was torturous. I usually ended giving up a minute or two before the class ended. It only happened at this specific time for about a year. The following year it started happening again but much earlier in the morning however I never got that far into sleep mode since my teacher for that class was very... stimulating and was really strict about people falling asleep in her class (a very awesome teacher though) It's probably the equivalent of trying to sleep with an alarm clock next to your head.

After I graduated they really didn't happen at all but then again my entire sleep schedule is way out of whack so for all I know it could.

Cataplexy is more difficult because I don't think it's "paralyzation by muscle weakness" so much as "paralyzation by almost all of the muscles involved freezing up." which pretty much if I'm hysterical whether it's out of laughter or tears.

Why have you not gone to a doctor or gotten tests/diagnoses? It's hard to work on problems if we don't know exactly what we're working on and what works for that problem?