[onlyme2]

I've not been sleeping well lately but last night I had a nightmare that disturbs me alot as I don't know what it means.
I go into a beverage store and the server hands me a glass of hot water, then he leaves me in the store alone for a while. When he comes back and I get ready to leave, he takes me into a back room and locks me up, I walk over to the mirror and I am shocked at what I see, the only part of me untouched was my face. I look at my arms, there are welts from being tied down by a chain, my chest is covered in holes, next to each hole was a hot iron branded date. I had chunks of flesh missing from my torso area and I can see no internal organs, I was not bleeding at all and I felt no pain, I don't remember what happened. The store owner comes back into the room, I lie down on the bed and ask him if he loves me, he dosen't answer, he just drinks alcohol until he is drunk, he gets up and runs out of the room, I get up and chase after him and finally I catch him, then I wake up.
I feel scared, I feel really unsettled today, my heart is pounding and I can't focus on things at work.

[Shadowboy]

That sound's like one Scary nightmare, I have had bad dream's in the past... but nothing as scary and descriptive as that.

Have you been watching alot of scary movies latley or eating spicy food's before bed? these are way's that I know for sure, that can trigger bad dreams/Nightmares. anyway... hopefully you dont have dream's like this again. and I hope you get some peaceful sleep tonight Onlyme.

[onlyme2]

I've had nightmares since I was a child, usually when I'm stressed, this year hasn't been good so I feel especially emotionally and mentally fragile.

[Geminian]

hmm...first thought, Youve lost your sense of control of something important to you..something personal.whatever it is, you feel it has torn you apart..made you less human...less who you are. perhaps you brought this upon yourself you think and now you feel unworthy of love..attention. Youre damaged but too distant to feel or understand it. perhaps you should try. its not love you seek... it self reflection....know thyself..first.

[Nupoet64]

That is a very powerful dream. I agree with Geminian. But the date brands are important. I felt that it was not a single event that riddled you or tore you to pieces, but a timeline, so to speak. And yes, you feel that you are unlovable. Rejection is big here. But my 1st thought came with the initial contact in the beverage shop. You are thirsty for something and asked for what you need and were given nothing useful. Hot water cannot quench a thirst. You wanted to leave, but were drawn deeper inside. Your needs are not being met, whether by you or another. You are being destroyed over time ( hence the dates) and are detached from the emotion of it ( not feeling anything) and they are not fresh wounds ( there is no blood). Your face is intact, because that is the mask you wear for the world. It HAS to look normal. You feel like walking dead. You need someone to love you, but they are detached ( alcohol) and run from you ( rejection, neglect). Maybe you feel that it is somethign you have done, or that has been done to you. But there is no trust, because there are no feelings.
It is a fascinating dream. I hope you find the answers, but I would ( if it were my dream) try to see the dates on the brands. If you dream it again.
You have to feel to heal, this is a big step to get you there. Good luck.