Self-induced insomnia(?)?

OK, so I couldn't sleep tonight (morning now, I guess), and I'm wondering- I know from experience that going a long time with out sleep is bad for you (heck, the main reason I'm up now is because I start thinking I'm starting to have insomnia again and it's making me paranoid), but I'm wondering if I should just stay up now at like 2 in the morning (I have to get up at 5 either way), because trying to force myself to fall asleep is just making it worse... I guess my question is does anyone else start getting paranoid when you can't fall asleep right away? I really do so much that on some nights (like this one) I end up sleeping maybe half an hour in short 5-10 minute nap things until I either a.) Finally drift off (bit late for that now) or b.) get up. I mean, it's like I get so paranoid and upset about not being able to fall asleep that I literally make it that way (self-fulfilling prophecy?).

I'm sorry if this makes no sense, it's hard for me to explain myself because it doesn't always happen, it's just really upsetting to me when it does so I thought I might as well ask. The worst part of the whole thing is that I get thinking that I'm the only one that's ever had to go through a day on no sleep when that's simply not true... It's all argh, if you understand that feeling, haha.

Well hey, some days I just don't sleep at all. Though I don't get paranoid - I just get annoyed because people yell at me for not sleeping. Usually I'm always hyped up on caffiene annd it keeps me up - but on average, I can keep myself up until 5 or 6 a.m.
I did get paranoid about some "black blurs" I started seeing. I freaked out a couple sleepless nights after I came to the wacky conclusion that sleeplessness gives you the ability to see demons. T_T

How I do fall asleep is I lay down, shut my eyes, and focus only on my breaths. Even if it takes awhile and it gets frustrating. I sometimes get up and get some water then keep trying.

nvr mnd, Yes, I feel exactly how you explained. I work myself up thinking I'm not going to get any sleep and it makes it worse. Sometimes the only way I know that I've slept is because I dream and then when I wake up it doesn't even feel like I've slept at all. When I do get to fall asleep I wake up every hour on the hour. That for me is a good night sleep. I know that's bad, but thats the best I can get. I hope you're sleep gets better.