[delicatefade26]

I just woke up from a deep-sleep nap and had a very weird dream about T...

My mom took me to my session (which she never does in real-life) and it was in a different building-it was a huge old house on the outside-but on the inside it had a weird look to it-almost like an arcade-but it had a waiting area and lots of rooms. My session was at 4:30, but my clock kept messing up and I had no clue what time it was. Then I see my T walk past and so I knew it was soon-and I just had to wait til he came to get me. Then I got lost in the rooms-didn't know where to go. I ran into a lady and told her I was looking for T and she said she was him-I panicked and said "you are not T! I saw him!"...so I ran from her and found T-who instead of having a session was making me watch a children's movie-and I didn't want to watch it-I started screaming and crying hysterically telling him I just wanted to have a normal session-he didn't seem to care...so the tantrum got worse. I wanted so bad for him to comfort me-but he said he couldn't-to just watch the movie. Then we ended up going to the waiting room where my mom was and we looked through pictures from my childhood.
It was a strange dream...and the part I don't get is the lady telling me she was T...even when I said his name-she said "yep-that's me..come on in" and it scared me so bad!!

[likewater]

Yikes. Maybe you are afraid to face your childhood without your Ts help, which is what you were forced to do in your dream, and maybe you are still afraid to trust your T ie you are afraid he isnt what he appears. Maybe because people in your past were
untrustworthy and weren't who they presented themselves to be, and that is really scary.

[delicatefade26]

I definitely know that it has to do with being afraid to face my childhood without T's help...even though he has been there for me-and comforted me. I think my fear is not that T isn't who he says he is-I believe him and trust him-but my abandonment issue gets in the way-that while he is here now he might hand me off to someone else...I thought that fear was behind me...hmm : / I think I'm going to tell T my dream on Tuesday...
Thank you for your response likewater